LuCkYsTaR's blog: "hmmm"

I know I have people around me that really care but I still feel so alone. I always feel like I have no one to talk to and express my feelings to. There are certain people I can talk to about some things that are going on with me and then the rest I'm just left with. I have so many things going through my head that I can't get out cause I don't have anyone to talk to about them. I'm tried of having everything bottled up inside me just letting it eat away at me. Why do I have to feel so alone???

I realized one thing today, even though I'm happy for my best friend (he's finally found someone who is perfect for him) I still feel like I'm losing him. In 10 days he will be married. We've been through a lot together and he's always been the one I could go to for everything but, now it's hard to do that. He only live 30 minutes from me yet I haven't seen him in months and when we talk I can never talk to him about the things I have called him for cause he doesn't have time. I understand his life is changing and I am so happy for him but I miss our talks. He's like a brother to me. For over 5 years he has been the one that has kept me in line, kept me sane, and made me the person I am today. I hate that I feel like I'm losing him cause I know I'm not. I just wish I could have one day where we could just hang out like we used to. That's what I miss the most. Late nights, watchin movies and talking. There are a few things that have happened in my life recently that I REALLY wanted to talk to him about but didn't because I know he has a lot going on with his life and I don't want to add to it. Well, I'm done rambling for now.