so i have a hard time speaking these days ... i dont thinki really talk to anyone
its like a big push i am pushing everthing everyone away
i dont wanna be here for anytone and i dont really want much of anything the thins i long for i dont know i dot memer the lst tiem i got what i wanted
and its always hurting and nothing feels good nothing tastes good
and i am alone i make my self be but i sick of
being desired and not wanted
i sick of helping opl and getting nothing for it i tired of being whateer i am now just a shadow me me
u know i stopped caring its bad t say it but i realy have stopped caring i wish i was over
i am just soo fucking tired of the nightmares
i am sick of the not sleeping
i hate the panic attaxks
i hate feeling weak
i dont wanna be a shell of me
i am hollow and i hate it
i feel pointless and i sic of looking fr ppl to confort me
i sm pass the poit of wanting to explain my self not to anyone not even my self