Today after work, I have to go with another friend of mine to basically say good bye to another friend. She is 54 yrs old and has a rare form of cancer that attacks many organs at the same time, it's just free floating in her body. She has 3 kids at home and a husband that loves her. She is a one in a million woman, but does that mean she really deserved a one in a million cancer? The friend that I am going with told her that she refuses to say good bye, that she isn't giving up on her yet. I can't keep myself together. How am I going to make it through work and then going to her house?? What am I supposed to say to her? What if I start to cry again? How do I walk out her front door and leave without breaking down in front of her?