Why does love have to hurt so much? I wish that i wasnt so insecure and nervous when in a relationship. I love someone and feel like i am losing them. I always make the same mistake in relationships. I always think that they are out to hurt me and that they dont really love me. I cant ever distinguish when someone is joking with me or when they are serious. then I overreact. I miss this person so much.... They made me so happy. I dont know how to tell this person that i am sorry and that i love them. I just wish that they understood how i felt. Writing seems to somewhat ease the pain. I was told not long ago that this person was a player and I went off on him.. I fogave him for what could of been just jealousy. Now that i said something that i shouldnt have he cant forgive me or wont i am not sure which. I cant sleep at night because i lay here and think about what i should of done but now it is too late to do it. I dont understand why love has to hurt so much!!! It is not fair, i know that i am a good person and deserve love but damn why is it so hard to find.
