Aleera's blog: "I Am All Alone"

To my so called friend for 10 yrs... A tear forms in my eye, I hate you I wish nothing more then to forget you .....but at times i miss you but i dont miss feeling degrated hurt embarrassed used I remember ....I dont miss you

One moment you can be completely happy then all of a sudden its all taken away, I get that lifes not fair, but Fuck give me a break dammit >_< Why does the one that doesnt work hard get everything!!!! Why does someone always screw me over. So many times i've been at my happiest and like always someone or something takes it all away :'( its hard to stay positive about life when there is nothing but sadness and dissapointment. Theres nothing I can do just to even stay a little happy. Nothing can make me trully happy, theres always something out to get me....sigh I just want the shits to leave me alone and let me be.

I have a friend which her name i choose to keep private....I've known her since my freshmen year of highschool. She was tough and never let anyone put her down..so girls never liked her and picked fights with her cuz guys wanted to date her...guys cheated on their girlfriends to be with her. Shes the longest friend i have just about 7 years. now a days we text each other at random times...a few months ago she had told me that she had gotten pregnant...it made me quite sad but then happy for her in a way cuz theres no point in staying mad when a wonderful ball of joy is about to come in the next few months, cant be mad at a new innocent life thats about to come. while we were texting she told me that the guy that got her pregnant ran off. Sigh what the hell is wrong with some guys. You get her pregnant but u dont stick around for the baby....any guy that leaves a pregnant girl to fend for her self and a kid is a douche bag....its not easy but man up to it and take care of what u did, face up to what u did...this may be a free country and you can do what ever you want, but come on its ur kid take care of em too cuz she will. and yeah i'm still pretty pissed at that guy that left my friends and shes due in 4 months. And shes working morning to night to make some dough :( In every way I can i will be there for her and her son as much as possible. Sigh so much stress something seems to get added on every fucking week :'(

I went to warped yesterday, I had so much fun, the worst part is i forgot my camera in the car no worries my friend had a camera phone so i'll post the pics as a blog well thats if i can. All i can say it was so much fun, i was tired, hungry, sleepy, and hearing loss, but fuck it was much much fun, I got to see Rise Against, Cobra Starship, Gym Class Hero's, Academy is, Katy Perry, Ludo, Oserkaband or something, Motion City Soundtrack, damn was it fun, i almost crowd serf buy little me was too scared, and almost got into a mosh pit with these giant guys scary SCARY!!! There was a lot of emo's there, most people know that i dont like emo people, the very definition of it, if your emo ur lame! thats that. A friend of mine want to see a band and in the back they were doing their emo mosh dance moves or whatever i was like wtf? thats fucking lame mosh right u pussy motherfuckers. well I was there from 11 to 9 at night crazy huh? i went home so tired, and starving but still awake to go on fubar and myspace facebook vampirefreaks and yahoo,aim and msn lol oh and text on my cell phone, but 10 minutes in i knocked out, woke up this morning with my laptop still on my lap :) hehehhehehe silly tired me :) after Warped Tour I am so looking forward to Ozzfest, and Bamboozle and whats coming up soon Woodstock , i never knew i'd get the chance to go to one :D yay!!!

I am a Guitar Hero Addict, The first time I ever played it was at Walmart, they were letting people have a go at it before they bought, and my god was i hooked, The summer I bought my cell phones from best buy and they gave me a 150 dollar back, And I bought guitar hero 2 :) in a month i was on begining expert. Woot!! Woot!! I always played it no matter what, I was a college student and i didnt give a rats ass, I played GH and texted, went online ate while I was playing, ADDICT!!!! But when I got my bf in March it all change a bit, cuz it was GH or him and Obviously I chose him, My birthday is on April and you know what he does, fuel the addiction he gets me GH3 for the xbox360 he got me months before x_x I can play almost every song except The Dragonforce song, through the fire and flames sigh damn song, its long and your hands get tired from the strumming and finger work, God damn i swear, its a goal for me to get through, I told many of my friends if i manage to finish that song on Expert I will cry no lie, I want to one day be able to play it so good that I can be in the guiness world of book of records, one day i will :) I hopes

Make a wish, place it in your heart, anything you want, everything you want, do you have it? Good, now believe it can come true, you never know when the next miracles gonna come from, the next smile, the next wish come true, But if you believe its right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind to the possiblity of it, to the certainty of it, you just might get the thing your wishing for, the world is full of magic, you just have to believe in it, so make your wish, Do you have it? Good, now believe in it with all your heart. Believe it can come true, even if it hurts, you never know it'll come true, all you have to do is try

Did you know the iphone 3G is for 199 with a new 2 year contract or upgrade :) thats pretty freakin sweet if you ask me. I'm getting one soon! yup yup! At the end of the month i will possibly have it :) I'm tired of phones with buttons! I just want a touch screen, i broke my razr a few months back and have been living with a shitty go phone that i hate so much!!!!! I can see the iphone now.....lol :( send me money so i can get it sooner? lol jk jk jk jk I hate to wait for it, cuz i want it now, i'll be so happy if i woke up and there was an iphone right next to me ^_^

For chicks i hate that unexpected dip in energy levels, i hate to be tired for no reason at all, and just lay around falling asleep, its so boring!!!!!!! I wanna wake up dammit :( ugh i hate PMS too, damn mood swings sigh can u tell i'm having a good day lol

my first blog :) just wanted to right nonsense! Blah!!!! :( i still want my iphone dammit!