i want to say sorry to eveyone for not being here much and that i really feel bad for not showing love back.
I have some things going on here at home and am having a hard time dealing with it
I was told a bit back that my girls father has lung cancer and had 8 months to live . it is now 9 months and the cancer travled to his brain and then to his spine . so it is not good at all. i have been off a lot so i can be there for my girls who dont understand why there dad . i think this hurts me more for them being he really has not helped much with their growing up. it hurts my heart everytime i get another call with more info.
i will be on here and there till my girls can handle this and i know it will be a hard thing for a long time but each day gets better for them . i also have my girl jessica here for a bit to visit me from NY where she had moved back last year for school , i am happy to see her and want to spend time with here till she goes back home .
Please dont think i forgot anyone but sometimes we need to deal with real life things even if we want to make beleive it is something that is not there
Hope you can understand
Still love you guys :)
