Just hung up the phone with mom. While we were talking I actually mentioned how much I missed her for being so far away ,I don't say "miss" this word that often because i'm considered as a cold blooded person,but this time I did ,and that's because I realized something and started to question the meaning of life ,thinking about if it's worth it to give up the right to live with your beloved people and enviroment,if in here it's the worthy life to put up with,sometimes I really contemplate and doubt about those things.But I guess it doesn't matter how bad you have been treated in life or how much of desperate you are,as long as you are still hoping to keep going,physically and mentally, you gotta fight for it,fight off negative mentality and think positively.After all life is promising for everyone who prays for it and being negative just doesn't help in any way. I guess so ,so I'll give it a period of time and see how it goes.But life doesn't have that much time for experiment.Hurry up !
