left side is me's blog: "I'll pray all night for him to call..."

I sumbled upon perfection with my blindefold securely in place/ he waited i hesitated and now the earth has no purpose/ can't cry enough to make the pain go away can't set time back and change whats become of the now/ i locked my heart up and froze the door shut but now as the isicles drip my venture out of the safety and into the world will be for lost cause... no one to run to and tell "I LOVE YOU!"/ wisk me away and and leave me to fade...

When i get drunk i get stupid and when i get stupid i make mistakes and ultimately i hurt him. I love him so much i couldn't sit there and lie... even though every breath in my body wants to just give up and let me slip away to nothing. It's not as bad as you think but it's not nothing... and "I love you" can never begin to cover how you make me feel sometimes... fear is no where near a strong enough word either... there are so many things i want to tell you but where do i begin and how do i know if it's all me or if you feel the same? I've never been one to just throw myself in the deepand and expect i know how to swim... but for you i would do anything so into the deepend i go... I'll just pray all night for you to call... I love you...