Lounatic's blog: "I never liked the word blog"

Well, I'm bored as f&ck tonight.  Fubar had locked me out for like 6 hours.  I'm watching dirt track racing and on demand shows I've been missing.  I've probably been as depressed as I've ever been this week.  Pretty much all week.  I wish I was still in Florida, reality was gone for two weeks :D  As always, I try to focus on the positive things, but it seems like the problem isn't getting unsad.  It's not even wanting to be happy consistently.  So I'm smoking an apple tonight with a grill clicker to expand my imagination to think of good things to cheer me up.  Like, oh yeah, I realized 20 minutes ago where there's spare parts in the house to fix my mt. bike.  I'm going to canibalize another bike.  It's been outta commission since last summer.  So, I'll be looking forward to shredding woods and trails.

I put the snowboard away and outta site.  Instead of remembering good times all I could think was I didn't get to ride at all last winter.  That motivates me really well.  I think I will actually fix my bike tomorrow and that makes me psyched.  The herb is to put me to sleep, it's 3:30 right now.  I've smoked A LOT this week to keep my mind from wandering too far, as it tends to.  I might decide I need to smash someone, and that wouldn't be good. 

I think I just need to remember I'm a fun loving, good natured lunatic and when I get up tomorrow, I need to put those clothes on.  Another thing that herb does to you is it takes away your ability to tell if you're rambling.  As I'm not able to tell, I'm not going to write any more in case someone reads this far.

Later people

Threesomes Share Now, here's what you're supposed to do...and please do not spoil the fun. Start a new note, delete my answers and put in your own. Tag your friends and tell them to tag you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known things about each other. Three Names I go by 1. Lou (cifer) 2. Sweet Lou 3. Lou Dog Three Jobs I have had in my life 1. Photographer 2. Salesman 3. Chair lift operator Three Places I have lived 1. Philly, PA 2. Rochester, NY 3. Haleiwa, HI (Oh how I miss it) Three TV Shows that I watch 1. CSI 2. Top Gear 3. Time Warp Three places I have been 1. Myrtle Beach, SC 2. Tampa, FL 3. Montreal, Canadia Three people that e-mail me regularly 1. Mom 2. Sam 3. Siblings Three of my favorite foods 1. Buffalo Wings 2. Chinese (General Tso Chicken and Lo Mein) 3. Rib Eye steak (grilled med rare) Three things I would like to do 1. Start a family business 2. Finish restoring my car 3. buy a house that I love Three friends I think will respond 1. I don't have that many fu-friends, lol 2. 3. Things I am looking forward to 1. My brother coming up from Alabama 2. Summertime 3. motorcycle licence B)

...it bugs me that it costs more to live where I recently moved to, but it is much nicer here. The drawback is I spend all my time working and now I don't have time to do the things I used to love to do. I grew up around here but it's been so long since I lived here (high school) that I can't find any of my old friends. The ones that I can find are always busy themselves in similar situations. I just feel like I traded free time and poverty for semi-nice and manic-busyness. I hope this doesn't last long, because I'm really not happy with my trade. NTM, the biggest reason for moving was to be closer to my family, and now I'm too busy to see them. haha, it's ironic