Buttercup's blog: "Squirrels in heat"

Ok...I'm almost off the 300mg Sertraline.  I'm now on 100mg of it and just went up to 40 on prozac.  Apparently when I had the brain damage it fizzled my brain and now I will cry like a fountain unless medicated????  Ok.  lol...at least now I have an explanation.  I'm behind at work.  I catch back up.  I fall behind.  I'm forgetful.  No seizures though!  YAY ME.  

I got on Ativan because I was panicking.  It's helpful but it makes me sleepy.  That and it makes it not work for emergency seizure medicine unless I double it.  I figure, eh, I can duck out like MJ and Marilyn Monroe, right?  I am officially a "risk taker".   Having damaged my frontal lobe, on the right side, I have some impulse control problems.  

That is why I hit you so hard.  just sayin...lol

I have an awful temper and all I can say is it's not often?  But ain't no matter.  I got it covered with severity.

I'm still working.  I think I'm going to tell them tomorrow I can't do it.  That, or I'm going to phone in sick.  Which IS the coward's way out.  Thank you (Superego?) for reminding me.  

I find that off the abilify I am unstable, stormy even.  But WITH the abilify I am dampened in my creativity.  I do not tend to produce as much art or writing.  It is a tormenting existence.  I choose between the two:  sanity or intellectual prison.  

Finally, some weido named "Killer" is harrassing me in chat.   When do I squish him like a bug?  Now?  After he says more?  lol

YES I am related to the most terrifying vermon on Earth:  Vikings, Baldnobbers, politicians, lawyers, and college professors.  BEWARE.

I will try to write more often.  And I will repost the NEverminds.  

Thank you for tuning in and for reading......

"You're hiding something"....A: "Yes, I hide a lot of things from you.  We all do.  It's easy.  We just put them in these things called BOOKS"....Alligator.

xo

Ally