RCouchenou's blog: "My Current Thoughts"

I seriously doubt there are many women capable and willing to have me as a partner. Nor do I believe there are many fathers of women who would approve of me. It is not that I am such a despicable character or without values, but rather I am not a conventional, secure bet. I was married for a considerable period and raised (for the most part) a large family, but eventually I was asked to leave as my then wife did not want to put up with my progressive unconventional thinking (I think she was afraid of the influence I would have on our children – she was probably right).

I am an intellectual, many find reason to fear this. Having been tested, I know I have a relatively high IQ. Though intelligent my education has been a matter of independent discovery and not formal schooling. This I regret, but don’t let it bother me as I know formal education guarantee’s nothing if not taken full advantage of. Many great thinkers had no formal education.

I am (I believe) a moralist. I hold to living my values of life and just treatment of my fellow humans, to a degree I had not witnessed practiced after 30+ years intimate involvement in the Church. I do respect churched people, if it is evident they actually practice what they preach, but there are issues where disagreement will exist, one being sexual practices. I do value commitment and faithfulness, particularly that between a man and a woman.

I don’t know whether I believe in God, certainly not in the contemporary Judeo-Christian sense of the idea. Yet there is much about reality we are ignorant of, and the idea of some divine source of it all, in my mind, cannot be rejected. I do believe ne the value of myth, Christian, Jewish, Islamic, Pagan or otherwise, each has truth to be conveyed, but more often than not perverted into something other than what it actually is.

Why do I share this much? I am not interested in a woman who cannot consider such a man as me. A woman who is willing to read this, and entertain the possibilities of my free expression, may be one I would want to spend a great deal of my life with. To be sure, she will need to be sexually attractive and desirable to me, but a relationship is more than sex … but that is important.