JohnE California's blog: "Ie C'est Noir"

I know you've been here, everyone has at least once... If you can't sleep tonight, then don't! Worry not because tonight is one of those timeless nights that never begin or end, you only slip in and out of them. Tarry here awhile then in between the sun scaped lands of your waking world. Listen to the secrets the night breezes whisper as they pass over ponds of water and cool your skin. Stand outside and relish the blazing star fire that heats your skin with a cold burning. Turn your eyes away from the shadows of the world and lift up your chin to gaze at the wonderfully pure reflection of the sun shining with a silver flare off the landscape of the moon. Tonight dance with faeries on shadowed lanes, and run with the deer under old oak trees. Dip your toes into waters with ripples laced with white fire. On nights like this when you can slip into the ancient lands do not fear getting lost, because when you enter the timeless realm that tonight has given you, there is no where to go, no place to be, and no reason to be there. It is truly a chance for you to just Be. Walk the paths in the fields of wheat, watch as the wind blows them in the moonlight, and as it seems you about to lose yourself in the feeling that you are in the middle of an endless ocean, reach down. Feel the wheat pass through your fingers as you walk. Truly, this is life. Hear the ocean waves in the distance and go to them. Remember your love for the sea and long for it as an imprisoned man longs for freedom. Remember with fondness the crash of the waves and the ocean swells as an exiled king remembers his kingdom. And when you gaze at the million pieces of silver fire that the stars and moon paint over the ever moving body of endless water remember those nights of distant youth in another life, when you would swim naked at night with your lover. In a night like tonight remember how it felt when you orbitted a universe of stars, until at last you became a star and landed here on earth. Go to the mirror and light a candle, look with unblinking eyes at the face you perceive, and watch how the universe observes you from behind those eyes. Indeed, you are a extraordinary expression of the universe. Never doubt in your heart this joy and bliss that you have in existing. Listen to the night, now that the sounds of living have died down. Do you hear that magical hum? The hum and vibration of all things? That devine song and essence. Look around with your eyes open and for once see how everything around is in constant joy and praise. Observe the dance and song of the love for existence. Here tonight, this timeless night when you could not sleep, answer the call of yourself. Go out and experience the true magic. Go out and meet the universe, Go out and meet God, Go out and meet yourself. The true magic of timeless moments is that they never end nor begin, and you can return to them at any time, or perhaps it is they that return to you. In any case grasp firmly this thought and idea and take refuge in these places. If you question where you should build a temple for the glory of God, then I tell you it is here, away from the blaspheming lips, and treacherous eyes of disbelievers. Here lovers, in paradise.

You see I feel that every story must come with its own presuppositions, I only want mine to be that: I don't believe in fear. I believe in and hail the Christ. As Allah watches I converse freely with the Moses. As Muhammad as my witness I speak with the Buddha. I ask only that if you love me that you do so fully, and if you hate me you do so with all the passion in your heart. I only hope that whether you love or hate me, that you will feel and perhaps jolt yourself out of your sleep. It is hard enough knowing someone that is spiritually in a wheelchair, but for those that bind themselves to people that are in a spiritual coma, woe to them. I hail the goddess that brings discord and discomfort to your lives, and with her chaos untangles the webs that through your life you weave. Oh that Eris would gaze long into your heart and rain her powerful destruction upon your life and set you truly free. She brings true distinction between those who are merely people, and those who are truly human. Never fear to experience life. For it is like the waves upon the sea, without the valleys there would be no peaks. So whether you are experiencing a peak or a valley know that: This to will pass. Tear down that pitiful excuse for a hut that you live in. With its mud and straw. Be discontent with its dirt floors. Tear it down and dig up the foundations. Only then will you find the gold hidden beneath, and with it be able to construct a hundred beautiful palaces! If you understand not the analogies I use it is only because you have become content living in a world that grows and fades, that creates with life and destroys with death. Only when you experience the eternal will you glimpse of what I speak, and then you will not need my words at all, for you will know the Truth for youself. In speaking of death: Why do you fear it so? It is the process of life. Do not fear dying, you were dead before you were born, and you will be dead after... How else do you know that you are alive? Hahaha, perhaps you fear it because because when a new child is born and comes from this nonexistence it is crying... and when someone is dying and going towards it he/she also cries. (just a thought). I tell you the truth, you are either dying to live, or living to die. I see people living every day that are dying. I see humans dying every day that are living. I say: Rise up! Do not fear the greatness burning inside you! If no one else will support you, know that I will support you in all the things you do, so long as you do them boldly and without fear. You were not meant to tip toe though life, but to live it most gloriously. Hail God, whether the name you call God is Truth, the Universe, Jesus, Buddha, or Allah. I care not for names. Only for you my brothers and sisters, because in you to some extent, great or small, I see God burning to be known. There is no seperation between us, we are us, and we are she, we are he, we are one. Do you seek to read minds? Seek it greatly, for the ability is within you. Do you seek to bend spoons, that to is in you. Do not fear the abyss, but pass over it, for only by passing over it and experiencing a devine adventure and coming back will you do the greatest good. Advance yourself, work on maturing your soul. Do not be distracted to the left or the right. Do not look east or west, and do not travel north or south. Look inward! Something is there waiting for you. Something is there, lurking, stalking, and hiding in ambush. Smell the sweet fragrance this thing casts in front of you, and follow it to the garden, follow it to the orchard. ...And still you keep your eyes closed, and ask me how. Ask yourself how, for you are me. =================================================== If I might say one last thing: Look around at nature, the trees, the birds, grass. Listen to the rippling of a stream and gaze at the patterns on its surface. You are just as magnificent as all these things. You Are an unique expression of the Universe!

Rough draft idea - Woman Current mood: en.amor.ed She had fire in her heart, and danger in her eyes. Standing next to her reminded me of driving fast on a desert highway. Touching her was like standing up through the moonroof with hands overhead and screaming. Not touching her was like pulling over for a break and realizing that even though you've stopped driving the desert winds never stop. Her touching me was like a sudden dustdevil, tearing at my desire like the wind of a funnel tear at the clothes of a lost traveller. Her look is passion, is daring, is dripping pure. Her figure is such that you drink it in gulps. You're full, but you want more. She is the clouds racing above your head, the power that moves your feet. Pursuant Noir. Her feminine is powerful, and hidden. She is Woman, That mysterious Goddess.