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another day another blog...this one is about trust..lol like any online community there are good people as well as bad...well this one's about the bad..the scenario (checked out profile, hmm similar interests, think i might say hi-sent message..became friends added to family..asked for some help figuring out some things..really thought this person cared...expressed my thoughts..was honest..then,....the drama began..insults started...threats were made then taken back.then blocked...) i just wonder wow cant people accept that you dont want to jump into anything? or that you dont trust just everyone? anyway i still like it here because i met some really nice people...and to all the good people *cheers* and to the bad...get a life and stay out of mine...
though i've seen some hard times and friends who come and go..Tragedy and heartache much more than one should know..I've fallen down so many times and got back up again...I've cried too many tears and let people cause me pain..Even though I seem to some-to be just a lost and lonely soul..My spirit is strong, fire burns from within-because I'm stronger than you know...
Once again, here am late at night thinking well i did a great job conveying my feeings lol..NOT I've been given s p a c e , Although i didnt ask for space i've been given it anyway.. All i asked for was not to feel pressured, i tried to explain and be honest about how i felt and wow it got bad real quick..you wanted me to always be real and i was i didnt say i wanted to leave, i asked your advice and you told me that it wasnt your place to tell me what to do-im confused..and i feel like you dont really want to understand me..
In my dreams He is there..He's the one who holds me when I am lonely-He's the One who makes me smile when I am sad..He's the man that I have always dreamed of..He is the one who completes me..The one who my heart belongs to..He's the one who encourages me and tells me that everything is going to be ok..He tells me im beautiful and makes me believe it..He is the One that I envision myself spending the rest of my life with...The only one who has ever accepted me for who I am and cherished me for it..Dried my tears and gave me hope for a new day..The One whos voice can move me to extreme pleasure, the One whos words could break my heart..How I long to be with you and to look in your eyes and see myself through the windows of your soul..
A connection across a vast distance..two souls intertwined, destined to reach the heights of an existance that few could fathom..A longing for one another that is beyond that of which the mind can comprehend...A feeling that is indescribable much more than mere words can express..
dreams..i just want to touch and be touched, not by just anyone, that would never do..i dont tolerate stupid very well lol..just that someone who can touch me with their words to my very soul..a look that burns through my defenses and the one who is the other part of me..the person that i willingly give myself to without question...to be that person to someone who knows me and accepts me for exactly who i am...and to the "One" i submit every part of me, heart,mind, body and soul...much love
Hmmm..what can i say about me...i spend alot of time thinking...sometimes too much..i have wants, needs and desires...and venturing further into a D&s relationship i am learning that my wants come second only to his wants needs and desires..I find myself desiring "His" touch every waking moment, and even in my dreams "He" calls to me..the sound of "His" voice moves me like no other...to some people who may read this you may not understand the complexities of such a deep connection such as mine..
