Hexadecimal's blog: "Inside"

The words pour out but not from my lips for the are spoken from my heart and spoken form my soul Many years I wandered lost all thanks to you I have finally been found and now walk with a completed soul You are all I want and all that I need when I am near you Love is all I feel Why must my heart be shrouded in fear afraid to hear the words I long to say unable to muster the courage to speak so I shall hold my tongue let things be Unknowing of the truth of feelings shared forbidden happiness, loss of what is the risk is great, loss greater to fail is to lose, alone to keep silent the same Truth in the eyes and words never spoken knowing what is what could be fear holding back the words heart afraid to feel happiness and sadness loneliness becomes me. As I look into those eyes, I see the purest of souls. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, but as I set my eyes upon your sweet face I see true beauty in its purest form defined. When you smile it sets my soul ablaze, as our gaze meets I see the world unfold before me and know I am where I should be, when I hear you speak time stops, and music from the heavens accompanies your angelic voice. You are as a Goddess deserving the unending devotion of all those before you. Happy yet sad unsure of this I want to believe a chance for bliss Can you feel do you see this beating heart the real me I am there beside you through thick and thin I will always be there when you lose when you win Nothing I say nothing I do is good enough not for you Happy yet sad and sure of this I would love to just share but one kiss Thrice by thrice, three by three this is the rule and it is, as I will be I do this deed be it good or bad making happy or making sad in the end, it will come back to me thrice by thrice, three by three Karma the damned, Karma the queen is she nice, is she mean she is naught but you as you live your life making it easy or causing naught but strife Thrice times thrice, three by three This is the rule, as it always will be My heart is so heavy with guilt and remorse no reprieve is deserved I earned no recourse If I had one wish I would send it to you Even though I could use it that is what I would do Darkness surrounding the look in your eye The fear held inside makes me want to die Knowing it is not my fault and having my hands tied Give me your pain let me take it inside Your heart is not mine but I will remain easing your fears and helping with your pain I stay in the shadows I am as I always will be The truest friend in the world for that is me How I feel will never go away my feelings like me will always stay.

------Some of Mine------ Hearts entwined,souls entangled,damn I tripped The darkness within is blinded by your light RïÐÐlër's Randomness and Requests ............ I may be single, but I'm not looking either You are beautiful EGO sapio quae meus verus amicitia es Cultus Eternus Matris, Dea Venus Ave Dea, Ave, Tolle Dea, Ave, Ave Dea I speak with my heart, nothing else to say Beware the serpent with a silver tongue I am so Fu King happy Cutting out my heart, I don't want it anymore Her love fills my ♡, and plays ♬ in my soul 41n7 n0 £0v3 £1k3 933k £0v3 ------Other people's------ If you have to beg ppl for rates, fuicide works - Tastee Is anybody out there?!?!? - Whoda Giggedy, Giggedy, Giggedy - Italiabella I need a new life this one is defective - the king of pain Don't overlook what's right in front of you - Mental Terrorist

I open my eyes and see your face do I belong here next to you in this place I know how I feel I felt it for so long when I am near you you make me strong I can tell you anything my love I confessed words escape me now I feel so blessed I hid for so long now I accept fate I know the risks and still open the gate I can not ignore it I give you my heart and wait for you to say lets start For once I am sure that what I am doing is right I dwelled in darkness and you showed me the light I was so scared to tell you how I feel now I know it was shared our hearts did reveal so I ignore my brain chase away the fear I can not wait soon I will be near When at last I am there and can hold you I will share my soul and you will know these words be true I make it my goal and solemnly vow to make you smile no matter the how So I open myself to you and share my love, my heart my compassion, my soul I give these freely to you to do as you please I will never hold you back here to help you realize your dreams helping in any way I can for it is what I wish to do

From my shoulders a burden peeled for once in my life my heart I revealed I once was so closed unable to look but you came along and I opened like a book unable to explain yet my heart knew mind refused it it had no clue that you are the one that can set me free you can be yourself and I can be me No matter what I will always be right there no matter the time no matter the where a connection that runs deep straight to the soul I was but half now I feel whole No longer scared talking only in song I say the words to you that I have held so long I now know how life should be I give myself to you you have all of me Do as you wish for I will never go I will wait for you so lets just take it slow let love pour out see where it leads karma gave us this in exchange for our deeds ignore your mind no longer reserve for we both have waited it is what we deserve. When I look into your eyes I see a reflection of me, a kind heart and a gentle soul who for so long was in pieces and just craved to be whole now that I have found you, I shall take it slow till we are both sure, till we both know As I glance upon your face, I know true beauty, for I see not with my eyes but with my soul, and it sees the truest beauty that could ever exist anywhere, not even the Goddess of beauty can compare to your Deified visage that lights my soul on fire and melts my heart instantly, wen I hear your voice, it as an assault of pleasure upon all my senses and makes my heart jump, every word ringing like a song in my ears and every syllable seemingly dancing in my mind.

One of these days I will no longer care, nor will I worry, or be afraid One of these days I will share my life, share my heart, and my soul One of these days I will speak say the words I hold inside But it is not time for me to say these things I am not ready, unsure of how you feel scared to tell you, afraid to reveal The truth in my heart, I feel each day pulling me to you, yet pushing me away

My mind is willing, my heart closed my soul yearning, body transposed this thing I feel, pulling away telling me to go, telling me to stay confusing lines, mind in pain wanting change, and everything the same no sense in this, living in the past but I stood still, and life went by fast Love lost, happiness gone, soul tormented learning hurts, mind suffering, thoughts demented Maybe one day there will be no more pain no more thoughts of the past to drive me insane but then again, they keep my feet on the ground they are all thats left, your no longer around

So much heartache I hold inside For the day you left is the day I died So long ago when I was whole I was happy and smiled each and every day then one day you left and took half my soul no words were spoken, there were none to say But I break my silence and begin to speak all the words I should have said, that you deserved to hear you were my strength and without you near I am weak so far away you went, but one day will be again near many tears fell, many days I did cry so I sit hear alone afraid to look for another, afraid to try for no one can take your place in my heart and for but to try would rip it apart I know why you left, you had no choice when we meet in heaven, I will surely rejoice Before anyone asks or SB me, yes I am fine, no I don't need to talk about it, these are merely words that came to my mind so I decided to write them down.

My Dear, As I set my eyes upon you I instantly know that it is you that I have always dreamed of. Beauty that proves you are descended from the Gods, for only they could come close to rivaling your beauty, and when you smile there is no comparison, because time stands still, and I am captivated in your heavenly visage. As you start to speak all the world seems to vanish and my ears are flooded with the most heavenly sound, more beautiful than a choir of angels. For no sound on earth could ever match your angelic voice. When I feel your touch time stops and I am lost in the ecstasy of your company, for you are all I want and all I need to make my life complete, I exist for naught but to serve you and make you happy. When our minds connect, I feel our souls touch, and I become one with you as we become whole, losing our individuality and becoming one together, complete, not two separate souls but an entirely new entity to take its place in the universe. As we part my world goes dark because without you in it, there is nothing left that could ever fill the spot that you will always hold, not only in my heart, but also in my mind and in the very blueprint of my soul. Alas I be naught more than a serpent, with a tongue made of silver, spitting words of the purest gold. See I can be romantic if I want, but now what do I do, for although I possess the words, I do not possess the knowledge or understanding to show my heart.

Lo though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I shall fear no evil for evil becomes me I am the dark one the demon in the night hiding, lurking just outside of the light hungering thirsting feasting on lost souls living of the fears of the weak and the tears of the innocent sucking the life out of their eyes leaving naught but an empty shell and for these sins I will take my place in hell I was once like you just wanting to be whole wandering the earth as just another lost soul then one day I opened my heart and loves fierce talons just ripped it apart Now I feast on misery and thrive on your hate and when you see my true face it will already be to late for if you let me in you open that door all you will hear is a deafening roar as I steal all your joy and suck out your soul for you now pay my price you will also never be whole I wait for death but never will he come afraid to come knocking after all I have done I offer this to you a fate far worse than death to feast on lost souls until they no longer draw breath but remember one thing To feast on lost souls, is to know eternal hunger hunger so vast hunger so great insatiable hunger