Goin4it's blog: "Insight"

So I'm at WalMart buying a bag of dog food for my dog. While in the check-out line, a woman behind me asked if I had a dog. Why else would I be buying dog food, RIGHT???
So on impulse I told her that no, I didn't have a dog, I was starting the Dog food Diet again, and that I probably shouldn't because I ended up in the hospital last time, but that I'd lost 50 pounds before I awakened in intensive care with tubes coming out of most of my orifices and IVs in both arms.
I told her that it was essentially a Perfect Diet and all you do is load your pockets with food Nuggets and simply eat one or two every time you feel hungry. The food is nutritionally complete so it works well and I was going to try it again. (I have to mention here that practically everyone in line was now enthralled with my story.) Horrified, she asked if I ended up in intensive care because the dog food poisoned me. I told her no, I stepped off a curb to sniff a poodle's butt and a car hit me. I thought the guy behind her was going to have a heart attack he was laughing so hard.

It is said that technology has made our world smaller by making everything more available. Then by any standard the internet must be the all time crowning achievement.  Never before have we been so connected to everyone and everything, right? Well, let’s think about that. I recently read a study which shows an ever increasing percentage of people who are finding more ways to stay connected to the internet for as many of their waking hours as possible. I see this happening around me on a daily basis and I’m thinking this seems like watching a movie about life rather than living one. Are we training ourselves to crave isolation? Just a mere 100 or so years ago, if you wanted to have a conversation with someone you’d need to be in the same room, now you need not even be in the same country. Are we, as a species, advancing toward enlightenment? The answer may not be as clear as we’ve thought.

Today was much like most other days, it started out with goals to
achieve, appointments to keep, places to go and people to see.
Naturally nothing went according to plan. Everyone has their own
perspective of what's important. No one bother to even try to
understand someone elses point of view because they're so wrapped
up in their own problems. We live in a time of great personal
suffering, often at the hand of those around us. It has become a
regular pattern, a routine, an occurance that is expected. For
me today was very much like days I've become used to except for
one minor difference, one thing went right today. Just one thing
but it caught my attention and then I started thinking about it 
and before long I started feeling better about the day in general.
Enjoy every piece of happiness you can find, for now I'm afraid
it may be all we have to keep us going.

Twas four hundred and foury three or there abouts when me dear friend Patrick came in to our wee village an began talkin' 'bout ol maner of evil that lay in the path before us. We were but simple folk an fairly unawares of such things we were. Take us aside, he would, an speak of a better way o livin' he did. Loved by ol he was til his passin' in four hundred and sixty one. Twasn't till seventeen hundred and twenty six I believe that we took up the wearin' o the green ta honor dear Pat. Now days ye be seein' many a gala an a festival  in every land. Be happy an love ye neighbor on this day an ol others just as dear Patrick taught, bless his soul.

hey

went to the hospitial yesterday

after pokin me and stuff
for about 3 hours
the doc came back in
and said well,

your not going to die.

with tears in my eyes I asked him "you mean ever?"

he says no, of course not, everyone dies at some point

I sighed and said Whew,
 
dodged a bullit that time


hey you awake over there

no wonder I can't hear ya laughing

I put in all this effort
typing my fingers to the bone
just to make you smile and guess what.

it didnt work

oh well, later....



Lmao, im here.


I was just sittin here cryin

thinkin how much my feelings be hurt if I had any


I been noticing some things

I been thinking some things
about what I been noticing

and I put the two together
and I ponder..........................

then it happens, click

two pieces fit together

then theres another

and another

and another, and another
and just like that

Lol, i love how ur mind works

a picture started forming in my mind



then I realized it was just a duck


but I was thinking of something ya know

a telephone is a wonderful thing

you can call a place

and exchange information

and when ya git done you can hang up

and call some other place

and do it all over again


my mind works kinda like a telephone

except I don't have the hang up feature

my mind stays connected to everywhere I've ever been

everywhere I've ever thought about

to places I can't even imagine yet

most of the time it's like static,
noise, can't tell what anything is
just want to shut it off but I cant

not even when I sleep

after a few years I started getting used to it,
background noise
dont even notice it on a good day

but it's still comming in

and it's being stored

right along with everything else
in a part of my mind that I'm
not using right now

and once in a while

I might be doing anything

and without any warning

a little bit of something leaks through

and it's all by itself

perfectly clear

don't know what it means but it's there

I ponder it for a bit and go
back to what I was doing before

maybe an hour goes by


maybe a day,

or a week,
or a month or more and then


it happens again,

just like before

feels just as strange

still dont know what it means

it's like a cycle maybe

so this goes on

and every so often

I never know when

it happens again

and then something is different

something comes through
and it seems to have something to
do with this other thing
that was already here
and that one there looks like it belongs over here
and that one and, look the one comming through right now,
it goes right here
and just for a second
I think I see what it's suppose to be

it's a

it's a

shit, it's a duck again



but it aint always a duck,

do you see what I mean


sometimes it's bigger

sometimes it's more massive



sometimes it's a goat



I'm still in training

I haven't got anything
that means something yet

just gotta be sure I can when it's time, wait...........

something's there..............

........I can hear it..........

it sounds like........

...Like.....

they changed the channel
now all I'm gettin' is commercials