DESPERADOBOARD OF GENTELMENLDC CO Founder's blog: "introducing ....me!!!"

a friend of mine came by today.weve knwn each other since birth and im always glad when we have our talks,today it was differant some,more final.ive seen changes in him for some time but today was the first time it ever caused an ice cold chill to tranquilize my spine. my friend had always been there for me s well as for others,he had thousands of friends but was the lonliest man id ever known,even beck in school.he was orphaned early in life and had a rather rough foster care time but when he ran away for the final time no one evr came looking.he worked ,lived in the streets yet kept goin through school. in school he was very athletic but not a jock.he was the rebel.he stuck up for the more shunned kids yet even the super cool were his friends.he went to nam when most of us were in the back seat with betty big boobs.thats where the change began.he did covert opps with the cia in laos and cambodia as well as suicide missions in north viet nam.he came back one of the highest decorated marines in nam history only to be kicked out of a wheel chair and disrespected at the airport. well he went on with his life an was an accomplished man.but even then i saw the distance in his eyes.he never left the war or the cia.both stayed with himj.he never spoke of what went on but i was there when hd have the hellish flash backs ,i could see the face of evry man whos life hed taken in the name of peace.peace,thats funny,he never enjoyed peace again.hes lived that hell everyday of his life. as we stood there i looked at what once was a chiseled body ,now,though still showing strength,was a shell of what it once was.his eyes more distant than ever,his words however showed the tenderness in his heart.quiet the combination,but still my friend. we talked of the good ol days and laughed,then his face became sullen and i saw his eyes cloud over. cap,he said in a voice so distant,ive never feared anything in my life.i knew where he was going but i was powerless to stop him.i know,i said.well ,now,after all the hell,the wuounds ,the scars everything that ive been throu and all the times i stared death down and laughed,now,im scared.his voice trailed and i saw his giant folded hands shake.here was mr undestructable,the man of steal everyone had thought invinsible,shaking like a dog on a cold winters eve. i reached out severl times to comfor my friend but each time i pulled back.i was seeing fear in the man who had no fear.i saw faint tears roll down the cheeks id seen smeared with blood and hardened by the sun. thn he stood up,transforming back into the man i thought id known so well.its ok,cap.no ones ever been able to do that ,im fine plz forgive me,i dont know what came over me.he turned and i watched his intimidating form slowly disappear. i guess everyone has their breaking point,even giant men that have a big heat.i wish i could of been man enough to hug my friend that day,to tell him i love him,to be by his side when the time comes,but im not sure i can be there for him.hes been put up on a pedestal by everyone and he wont show weakness becouse to them he has none.his tears will flow inside his giant heart,and the saddeness ill turn his soul black.and on the day hes laid to peace a single angel will appear. hell not go to heaven for all that he has done,and hes lived eternity in hell already.the angel will look and then senence my friend,to a life of damnation ,roaming this land. DEDICATED TO A FRIEND THA WLL REMAIN ANNONOMOUSE BY REQUEST,AND TO THE MEN SUCH AS HE,THAT WILL GIVE TILL THERES NO MORE TO GIVE AND ASK NOTHING ALOUD IN RETURN,HOWEVER LOOK INTO THEIR EYES AND IF THEY SEAM ENDLESS AND ALONE,GIV THEM A HUG,IT WILL BE A DEBT PAID IN FULL. TO ALL OUR FIGHTING MEN AND TO THE LAST OF THE BEST,THE U.S. MARINE CORPS FALLEN ANGELS S/F,AND TO OTHERS WHO SUFFER FROM WARS DESIESES LIKE AGENT ORANGE.

I WAS JUST GOING THRU SOME OLD THINGS OF MINE AND RAN ACROSS MY OLD FOOTBALL JERSEY,SIGNED BY ALL MY TEAM MATES AND COACHES AND CHEERLEADERS.MY MIND WENT BACK TO THE LAST TIME I WORE THIS JERSEY.IT WAS AGAINST OUR RIVAL SCHOOL FOR THE STATE CHAMPIONSHIP. HIGH SCHOOL YEARS ARE THE MOST IMPORTANT IN YOUR LIFE,THEY SHAPE WHAT YOUR FUTURE WILL BE AND THEY NEVER LEAVE YOUR MEMORY.THEY ARE FRESHER THAN MY DAYS AT OSU AND WITH DENVER,YET THEY WERE JUST HIGH SCHOOL . THE LAST GAME WHEN I WORE THIS JERSEY WILL ALWAYS BE BURNED INTO MY MEMORY,IT WAS THE LAST TIME I EVER SAW SOME OF MY FRIENDS.ONES ID GROWN UP WITH FOR YEARS AND ONES ID ONLY KNOWN IN H,S,BUT THEY EACH HELD A PART OF MY HEART AND ALWAYS WILL. IT WAS THE FOURTH QUARTER,SUDDEN DEATH.OUR ARCH RIVAL,ALSO THE SCHOOL MY BEST FRIEND AND GF ATTENDED.I WAS QUARTER BACK AGAINST LARRY,MY BEST FRIEND,UNTIL THIS YEAR WED ALWAYS PLAYED ON THE SAME TEAM.WE RAN AN END AND AROUND PASS PATTERN.I HAD NOONE OPEN SO I WENT FOR A LONG SHOT.I RAN FROM THEIR 45 YARD LINE. LARRY HAD GOTTEN UP FROM THEIR BENCH AND WAS CHEERING ME ON,THE ENEMY,LOL.I GOT TO THE 2 YARD LINE AND WAS HIT ,IM NOT SURE BUT I THINK IT WAS BY A TANK.EVERYONE WAS QUIET AND I SAW THE BALL GO UP IN SLOW MOTION AS I HEARD A LOUD SNAP FROM MY SHOULDER.THEN I THINK A DUMP TRUCK UNLOADED ON MY CHEST BECOUSE I FELT A TON OF WEIGHT CRUSH ME. WELL.I DIDNT MAKE THE AFTER GAME PARTY.INSTEAD I WOKE UP IN THE HOSPITAL.BROKEN COLAR BONE,3 BROKEN RIBS AND A FRACTURED SKULL WITH CONCUSSION. THE ROOM WAS FULL OF PEOPLE WHEN I CAME THROUGH,SOME IN UNIFORM STILL AND OTHERS IN STREET CLOTHES EVERYONE TALKED ABOUT THE GAME AND THE GREAT PLAY,BUT I DINT HEAR WHAT THEY WERE SAYING,ALL I SAW WAS LARRY STANDING IN THE BACK GIVING ME THE HIGH SIGN.THAT WAS THE LAST TIME I EVER SAW LARRY,IT WAS THE LAST TIME I EVR SAW MY GF AND SEVERAL OTHERS THAT WERE THERE. I RELIVE THAT GAME WHEN EVER IM ALONE,AND I REMEMBER MY FRIENDS.OVER THE YEARS IVE TRACED SOME DOWN,LARRY I HEARD WAS A SCIENCE PROFESSOR IN AUSTRALIA.MY G/F WAS MARRIED .SHE HAD 6 KIDS AND AS MANY HUSBANDS TO.SOME WERE SCATTERED ALL OVER THE WORLD,SOME HAD PASSED,BUT IMN MY MEMORIES WE ARE ON THAT FIELD TOGATHER I CANNT REMEMBER ALOT OF THNGS BUT HIGH SCHOOL WILL LIVE IN MY HEART FOREVER. THIS IS DEDICATED TO A VERY SPECIAL FRIEND WHO TO THIS DAY IS STILL AT THAT HIGH SCHOOL.HE TEACHES FOOTBALL THERE AND IS A MATH TEACHER.HE WAS OUT TOWEL BOY BECOUSE HE WAS TO SMALL BUT HAD THE HEART OF A LION.HES TAKEN THEM TO 18 STATE CHAMPIONSHIPS YET NEVER PLAYED A SINGLE GAME.LIL MIKEY,WHO NOW STAND 6FT 5 AND 235 .TODAY HE RETIRED.WE ARE GOING TO GO TO THE PARK AND TAKE ON SOME DUDE AND HIS FRIEND THAT THINKS THEY CAN BEAT ANYONE,YOU GUESSED IT,WE ARE PLAYING LARRY AND HIS BOY AND ITS AT THE PARK WHERE ONCE OUR HS FIELD STOOD.YOU CAN BET WELL HEAR THOSE ROARING CROWDS THAT WERE THERE SO MANY YEARS AGO.

LCDF HUH,HMMMM,I DONT KNOW,THATS SOME CRAZY INITIALS.LOCK DOOR CUT FART?/DAMN I JUST COULDNT FIGURE OUT THE MEANING,I SAW IT ALL OVER CHERRY TAP BUT I NEVER KNEW WHAT IT WAS.THEN A FRIEND I ALWAYS TALKED TO TOLD ME ABOUT THIS GREAT FAMILY SHE HAD JOINED.IT WAS CALLED LESTATS DARK COVENANT FAMILY. WHOA I SAID,YOU SURE YOU KNOW WHAT YOUR GETTING INTO.THAT SOUNDS LIKE A BUNCH OF DEVIL WORSHIPERS. WHAT IS ALL THESE NAMES WITCH QUEEN? REBEL BITCH?WHAT KINDA WOMAN CALLS HERSELF A BITCH?YEAH ,I WAS BROUGHT UP IN A NARROW MINDED ORPHANAGE AD HAD NARROWER THOUGHTS. WELL OVER THE NEXT COUPLE OF WEEKS I MET SOME OF HER FRIENDS,COME TO FIND OUT THEY WERE ALL LDCF MEMBERS,WOW I WANNA JOIN THAT I SAID ,I SEE IT ALL OVER.WELL I MUST BE REALLY DUMB .I JOINED LCDF AND I LOVED IT.I MET GREAT PEOPLE AND DID SOME GREAT THINGS WITH MY NEW FRIENDS.EVERYTHING WAS PERFECT . THAT IS UNTIL I WAS TALKING TO MY GOOD FRIEND TELLING HER HOW MUCH I LOVED THE FAMILY AND HOW GLAD I HADNT GOT INVOLVED WITH THAT DARK COVENANT GROUP THAT I HAD CHOSEN LDCF BECOUSE I REALLY LOVED THE WAY I WAS TREATED AND THE SINCERITY OF THE GROUP. WELL FOR ABOUT 10 MINUTES I HAD MY FRIEND AND EVERY PERSON SHE COULD GET ON CONFRANCE LAUGHING THEIR HEADS OFF.I WAS LAUGHING AT THEM SO HARD TEARS WERE IN MY EYES. THEN EVERYONE STARTED TO INTRODUCE THEMSELVES ,BY THEIR CT NAME.I STARTED GETTING A WIRD FEELING,ESPECIALLY WHEN I HEARD WITCH AND A FEW OTHERS.THEN CAME THE BOMB,SHE SAI RIGHT THIS DOWN AND SHE HAD ME DO LDCF.NOW UNDER THE L WRITE ESTA........OK YOU GET THE IDEA,LOL. WELL I WAS ABOUT AN INCH TALL FOR A BIT BUT AS MY NEW FOUND FRIENDS KEPT WELCOMMING ME AND TALKIN TO ME I RELIZED I REALLY DID BELONG,THIS WAS TRUELY A FAMILY.NO ONE WAS EXCLUDED AND EVERYONE WAS INCLUDED.WE WORKED TO HELP EACH OTHER.BOMBING WAS A BIG THING BACK THEN.NOW WE WERE NEVER A BOMBING FAMILY AND NEVER CLAIMED TO BE,BUT HOW CAN A GUY WITH 25 FRIENDS ,ALL FAMILY MEMBERS,WIN A CONTEST BY OVER DOUBLE WHAT THE OTHER CONTESTANTS HAD.ILL TELL YOU,MY FAMILY PULLED TOGATHER AND FOR 36 STRAIGHT HOURS THEY BROUGHT ME FROM 5600 BEHIND TO OVER 20000 TOTAL.THEY ALL HAD THEIR FRIENDS CALL THEIR FRIENDS ECT. WELL WHAT IM GETTING AT IS LDCF,LESTAT DARK COVENANT FAMILY WAS THE GREATEST AND STILL IS.LETS GET BACK TO BEING THE FAMILY WE ALWAYS HAVE BEEN ,WELCOME THE NEW AND REVIVE THE OLD. L.D.C.F. RULES #1 #1 #1 #1 L.D.C.F.

i walked down the streets coridors listening to the echo my shoes made on the cocrete. it echoes like the distant drums beneith mt feet. the street lights made such an erie glow letting me know i had no place to go acrooss the baron streets i watched a lone dog scurry i had no where to go,there was no hurry. by a bench i sat down to rest my weiry soul wishing i had someone to make me whole i lit a cigarett and held my breath being alone was a fate worse than death. i walked to the park and i stood by the gate wandering how,i had met such a fate. i needed someone who to me could lend just the time to be my friend i walked by the fountains now dry as a bone i hated this world that made me alone then i saw with my clouding eye an old man sitting hed started to cry i walked over and i sat by his side an ols felt hat tipped so is face it woul hide. we sat there togather and ner said a word twas not a sound,noteven a bird he finally said in a voice so low theres more to this world boy and this you should know never go to bed angry or miss any sleep keep love in your heart andfeelings deep hold not a grudge or ill tempered thought or alone in this world youll find yourself caught. do unto others as youd have done unto you and find those to you whose hearts are so true. theres nothing so lonely that this world canntlend i looked finally into that old mans face and i said these words so seemingly out of place till stay here beide you till the bitter end for in you ive found a friend then he looked at me and a chill toutched my spine, that moment changed my life and i wish i could define the mirracle that happend when i saw that face was mine

hi! im desperado.im an easy going guy that loves the mountains.i used to spend alot of my time wtaching the beayty of the outdoors all year around,i gues youd call me an outdoors romantic. then theres the other side of me.i play the drums.i used to be in a rock group and even had a few releases then i went into the service.shoulda stayed on my pedastal becouse the band really did well and are still going strong,i won go into the namwe of the band becouse that just causes to much drama,lol.i hate drama.in the service i was in covert ops but thats behind me.i love to race.i race pro fuel and pro stock as well as i have a drag bike i love to run.been racing since i could see over the stearing wheel,and maybe a couple before. i guess besides the outdoors,music and racing my other likes are sky diving,motorcycls,being with friends,motorcycles,the beach,motorcycles,dancing and i cannt forget,motorcycles.lol. physically,oh dont ask,lo.i hate this part so ill make it short.6ft 1 200 lbs lond lt brown hair,hazel eyes,decent build mustache and thats about it. my likes are easy,life.my dislikes are just as ez.liers,cheats,theives and drama of any sort.i love to help other people and im a good listener.im faithful to my friends and when i have a woman,shes my queen and i treat her as one,nothin like a satisfied woman.theyre your best friend,lover and confidant. i love traveling alot and i attempt to write poetry and songs but we wont go there,lol.hey ladies,im a damn good cook to,lol. in my spare time i am an instuctor for self defence at several of the law accadamies around,and im a volenteer fierfighter and paramedic.my profession ,well thats not important. looking for some good friends here,ive met over 350 of my net friends on other sites id been on and i hear this ones the best,did i hear wrong??? let me know!! special hello to some friends here that i consider my real family,rebel bitch,hey darlin.lost,my fiance,lestat,tigerldy,mom,pain and the rest of ldcf.love ya all. dddaaaattts all folks!!!