KnightFlyer's blog: "Is this friendship really over?"

Recently I heard something while watching an episode of Eureka7. The title was: DIfferentia. During an emotional outburst from Renton he said the following: "There is no such thing as an eternal life. If you destroy a human being then he will never come back. That's why, that's why everything, everything is over when someone dies". This is an extremely important contradiction to what the church has told us since we were born. I have strong beliefs in the topics of life and religion but will not force them upon anyone. That's why they are my beliefs and not others. You may believe in what Renton said and you may not, but I say go for it. Just do me the favor and not try to change my mind by forcing your beliefs onto me. We are all different and the world would be too weird if we weren't. Keep on the path and enjoy yourself. It saddens me when I hear, or see, somebody doing something to someone because they had different beliefs than theirs. It is not too surprising to find such a controversial topic in anime, but to just have a character spout what Renton did and then just go on as if nothing happened is refreshing. I wish the world could go on without having something bad, or hurtful, happen as a result of one persons' opiinion.

Not very long ago, about 3 months or so, I met this wonderful lady on the internet. We met each other as members of a couple of different social networking sites. The initial conversations were general in nature, but we soon found that we had many things in common. It wasn't long before we noticed that our feelings for each other had progressed into a more serious nature, that of love. During one of our all-night I.M. chat sessions certain things were said and shared. Unfortunately I haven't been able to contact her for over 3 weeks. Thoughts of health concerns, computer issues, and family problems abound. I fear anger with me for not completely committing to the relationship may be more likely the cause. I had expressed a deep reservation on the grounds of problems with long distance relationships in the past and the subsequent failure that ensued. I want to take the "leap of faith" and enable myself to finally be with her. Since I have several health complications, and a case of social anxiety to boot, I find myself paralyzed as to what to do. Due to the fact that I live in the country, and have basically no one I can talk to about this, I find solving this problem is not going to be easily found. How am I to resolve this dilemma??? HELP, PLEASE