Generic Obsessive Deity's blog: "Issues"

Pretentious here I stand, against the light Savior or maybe maker neither seems quite right Just self aware enough to know I will never understand The void that is self and the self I lost to the void Tested and secure except for myself Follow the road home, but it never leads back So losing my way, second to come last to go With no shelter to be found, all is the same I've been here before, but can't find the way that I came Before I don't remember why I stand prententious, alone against the light With no objective, well maybe deicide's on my mind Lay down the wall, so everyone's free to die I stand prententious, the deity is inside Leaking out are thoughts, feelings and desire A sieve to my soul, leaves nothing to consider That opens the door, for no gods no heroes To save the light, a world to be envied Now remember why, for all of time I stand prententious, alone against the light With no objective, well maybe deicide's on my mind Lay down the wall, so everyone's free to die I stand prententious, the deity, inside

Looks like this whole job situation has gotten out of control. Find out that for 2 months my coworkers have been bitchin about me behind my back to the owner, who for some misguided reason waited until now to tell me anything. wtf, i dont think i will ever understand this kinda shit, if theres a problem say something to me..... i guess maybe thats to hard or doesnt create enough drama. add in that we start paying for a second location starting the 1st which hasnt even started the buildout (if ya dont know all retail locations start out as a shell, four walls doors windows roof and thats about it, the rest is done by the renter) which will prob take a month to do, plus inventory and setting it up. so thats at least 2 months of rent for which there will be no income for. its like a line of dominoes, money has to come from somewhere, take the rent out of this stores income which is that much less inventory in the store to make a profit on which has already been stretched thin as it is trying to get things going for the second store. long and short, unless he has some sorta miracle card up his sleave i do believe we are good and fucked. Comes down like a house of cards, hes broke and ive got nothin to show for more than a yrs work cause i get paid under the table to help with taxes. so techically when i go look for another job i have to say i was unemployed for more than a yr, instead of the truth that i was managing a store. SOB! Finally seem to gettin a leg up and about to start supportin myself and bam its all gone.