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Well the crazy red head is still alive..I am full of cheeze too. As most know I have been battling cancer. Breast, cervical and ovarian cancer blessed me threw the last year and a half now. I have had some triumps and set backs.
Threw this process I went down to 75 pounds. I do and have always had PTSD and with this diagnosis it kicked in big time too. The treatments were hell. The being tired and medication blew butt nuggets as I say. All in all as rough and hard as it was/is, my life has been saved. Yes another survivor of this awful death sentence. The word we all hate and fear CANCER.
I will say with all the support from my friends, family, online friends and family, and my sweetheart of a man Jeff, that made me fight harder. I was blessed with a grand daughter also 16 months ago. She is my angel and my fight. I hope one day she will know how special she was to me and how she helped me threw this horrible thing.
Now I am up to 120 pounds. I smile daily and have a very new perspective on life. Live love and laugh. Those three things help along with the words faith and God. In my life God most deffinately comes first, faith is needed because we can't see and, as we can't truly see a cure for cancer. I have encountered an issue with tremors/seizures that I will probably have for the rest of my life. Those two things sound scary but trust me Cancer sentence is worse. All in all everything is going well.
I am not on much as I am tired and still in and out of the hospital. As in the process of a car and detailing it a step at a time, so is my medical condition. We are still fine tuning so that I can live a loving and forfilling life with the ones I love. As we go threw our lives fighting and bickering about senseless things, please remember there are ladies and gentlemen fighting for their lives in many ways. Instead of consuming yourselves with drama, bs, and what not. Sit back and think truly how good your life is, take a breath and turn away from all that. Life is to precious and fast moving to bother with unhappiness.
That is my update on me for now. Hope all of you are well. I send cheezy love to everyone that knows me.
~godspeed~
"I am Me. In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine, because I alone chose it -- I own everything about me: my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, whether they be to others or myself. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes.
Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me. By so doing, I can love me and be friendly with all my parts. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know -- but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me.
However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me. If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded.
I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things around me. I own me, and therefore, I can engineer me. I am me, and I am Okay."
<center>Godspeed everyone!!<center> ~Cammy~
