I guess it's all over again, for the final time in this old dragon's life. I gave up everything that I had for someone I care very deeply about. Now I cry myself to sleep at nights because she is not here. I pray to God everyday to just end this torture and misery because she is not here. I constantly think that meybe my brother had the right idea when he blew his chest out because she is not here.
When she is here, I feel invisible. I feel angry when others touch her and I cannot. All I ever wanted in this sorry life was to be happy, and I thought I would be here. I will never be happy again because she is not here......