hopejadded's blog: "jaded"

Girl Anachronism Artist: Dresdon Dolls Album: Dresdon Dolls Year: 2004 Submitted by: sophie you can tell from the scars on my arms and cracks in my hips and the dents in my car and the blisters on my lips that i'm not the carefullest of girls you can tell from the glass on the floor and the strings that're breaking and i keep on breaking more and it looks like i am shaking but it's just the temperature and then again if it were any colder i could disengage if i were any older i would act my age but i dont think that youd believe me it's not the way i'm meant to be it's just the way the operation made me and you can tell from the state of my room that they let me out too soon and the pills that i ate came a couple years too late and ive got some issues to work through there i go again pretending to be you make-believing that i have a soul beneath the surface trying to convince you it was accidentally on purpose i am not so serious this passion is a plagiarism i might join your century but only on a rare occasion i was taken out before the labor pains set in and now behold the world's worst accident i am the girl anachronism and you can tell by the red in my eyes and the bruises on my thighs and the knots in my hair and the bathtub full of flies that i'm not right now at all there i go again pretending that i'll fall don't call the doctors cause they've seen it all before they'll say just let her crash and burn she'll learn the attention just encourages her and you can tell from the full-body cast that YOUR sorry that YOU asked though you did everything you could (like any decent person would) but i might be catching so don't touch will you stop believeing youre immune to gravity and stuff don't get me wet because the bandages will all come off and you can tell from the smoke at the stake that the current state is critical well it is the little things, for instance: in the time it takes to break it she can make up ten excuses: please excuse her for the day, its just the way the medication makes her... i dont necessarily believe there is a cure for this so i might join your century but only as a doubtful guest i was too precarious removed as a caesarian behold the worlds worst accident I AM THE GIRL ANACHRONISM

I dont want to fight. Every single night. Everything i want is in your light. You and me go there. To places i dont know to care. The spoils of all i got were left to scrounge. Dont let me say this, But you're not worse than me. Its crazy. We are real if real ever was. It's just because. We all feel, feel we've had enough. I'm real, cause someone gave me sound. I wanna be there when your happy. I wanna love you when your sad.

Wish You could turn off the questions, turn off the voices, turn off all sound. Yearn To close out the ugliness, close out the filthiness, close out all light. Long To cast away yesterday, cast away memory, cast away all jeopardy. Pray You could somehow stop the uncertainty, somehow stop the loathing, somehow stop the pain. Act On your impulse, swallow the bottle, cut a little deeper, put the gun to your chest.