So once again I get my heart broken this time this one really really really hurts and I can't take the pain anymore I never had panic attacks before until Saturday and Sunday....I am going through depression the way it is, and this just comes out like this...I don't know what to do anymore...I get the lines of "I won't break your heart", "I promise I won't hurt you", "I love you"...and yet the fuckin shit happens all the time....so i guess i'm NOT A GOOD GIRLFRIEND AT ALL!!! I just want to give up with things right now...my friends and family are watchin me and just being here for me....Also my mom didn't approve of him either or sum of my family and shit hit the fan...NO matter what I will always love him and think about him...I just wish I could be with him not his new gf....with this fuckin drama...i want things just to be the same as what they were back in November and December! I miss him I do!! I miss Eau Claire!! I just want to give up right now but I won't and I can't!!! not just cuz of this cuz of the my depression and more depression....I just want to be the me again!!!
