Nobody knows pain the way I do. It’s hard to describe how much the pain hurts. Hating each and everyday that comes my way. Pain of a million daggers piercing my heart and unable to die. Crying endless tears of shame feeling I am to blame. Unending sorrow only longing to borrow a small bit of happiness. Feeling the blackness consume me. Falling forever in the void of darkness. An empty shell with a terrible hell for a past. No where to turn. No one to trust. Tell me the truth or forever lose me to the abyss. No way out and no one to hear me shout. Scream in silence as they all pass by without even a glance. No escape from the hell we make. Rejection and emotional mutilation clinging to my soul as I become more and more empty. Black hole from within devouring what it may. A desperate cry and a longing for love. Run away and never look back. Hide from everyone who can get near. Never trust, never love, never get hurt again. Live alone, scream alone, die alone. Fear and torment always near. Run from darkness and appear as if nothing’s wrong. A daily façade for all to see and never let anyone be close. Face to face with disgrace too much shame and all the blame. So much pain with nothing to gain. Let it take over and never grow older. Feel the pain and remain alone. For alone is how you always were and alone you shall always be.
