It's been a while since I blogged. Well, what's been going on in Lorrie's life? Lots! School. Work. Kids. Steve. Lots!
School: I have 6 more weeks of classes, then I can take my externship. I have to take my Med Law class along w the externship, but that shouldnt be too bad. I'm taking 16 credit hours, 2 clinicals. I'm loving it all, even tho I'm stressed. I really think this is where I need to be careerwise. I'm really soulsearching about what kind of office I should request. I feel the pull to go to Peds, but I also have interest in General practice. I'm really trying to keep it all together and keep my grades up. Being a single mom is rough, especially with my boys.
Work: I filled in for a sick coworker for 12 weeks. Full time. UGH However, she's back and I'm back to part time... kinda..
Kids: Kira is doing well in school. She was on the Honor Roll :) The boys, well, that's been rough. I knew it wasnt gonna be easy, finding out the kids have Autism. But I never knew it ws gonna be like this. My first worry was if I'd done this to them. I dunno. The meds I took while pregnant was to keep them healthy enough so they would be ok when they were born. Ive fought for so long for answers, you'd think when I start getting some, I'd be relieved. Yes and no. I worry constantly that what I'm doing for them is the best, like every other mom, but then I also second guess myself. My kids are different. They need extra patience. Sometimes; life doesnt afford us those luxuries. I know now why I have such a strong will. I'm gonna have to be a fighter for my kids for the rest of my life. We all have battles, but some things I know my boys wont be able to do, especially James. I know God only gives us what we can handle, I'm just wondering where is the strength he sees in me? It's gotta be there I guess. It has to be :)
Steve: What did I do right to deserve this man? When I feel like a screwup, he looks at me and tells me I'm wonderful. I dont feel wonderful, but he thinks I am. He and I have our rough spots, but we work it out. I have made some really bad decisions about my love life in the past. Steve is the one good choice I've made. He makes me want to be a better person, and yet he accepts me when I'm not so good. He puts me in my place when I'm outta control and he sticks by me.
Overall, life has been moving forward. Finally. The last few years has seen much loss. There's been alot of endings in my life. I'd been waiting for the beginnings, and it seems as if theyre finally coming. Relationships are getting to a place where they should have been years ago. I'm learning how to handle the obstacles in my life is a better way. There are people coming into my life who really make it worth living.
