butrflygrl4uFuMarried to Phillip Phoenix...'s blog: "Lack of love and Life !!"

I work at a dead end job I know I do. I try to make a honest living and pay my bills. I don't expect to win a Grammy, Nobel Prize, A Golden Globe or anything like that. So why the hell am I getting harassing phone calls while I am at work ?? I feel I don't need the added stress of, am I going to get a phone call today, added to the stress of my job. I know I am not the most attractive female around also, I get used, played, cheated a lot. One more thing I feel I don't need. Can someone please tell me what I have done to deserve any of this ??

You would think a young woman of 23 would be having the time of her life and have a boyfriend or be married. No not me, my life is revolving around my job right now, trying to live paycheck to paycheck. As for love all I can say is this, what love ?? My crush is about my only love so far. I never know if a guy is sincere about his feelings towards me or if he's out to hurt me. I am tired of being hurt, I have done nothing to anybody else to deserve to get hurt all the time. I mind my own business unless someone asks me for advice or bring me into their business.