I am still hurting over the decisions that Rande has made concerning us and our child. To have him choose someone else that he met while I was pregnant and raise her child to call him Daddy instead of his own has rally delt me a hard blow. I am making it though. I have to stay strong for my son. he is my world and my life. I keep up with the day to day so as to make life better for him. I never want to cause a tear to cross his perfect face. He's an angel. I have some awsome friends that have supported me no matter what, even when I didn't know what I was going to do and felt like giving up. They are my stability. I have a great family that has allowed me to morn and give me a break from Aiden (my son) so that I can have some time to myself from time to time. I am still the same person I feel but different. I still enjoy the same things and act the same but emotionally I have made a promise to myself not to get serious with anyone else until I know for sure that they are going to stay true to me and are just as serious as I am about us.