so after loseing his arm to drunk driving less then a year ago...michale died from that exact thing last night. im heart broken. yet surrounded by my good friends sonny michelle and petra...meshulls @home. theyre helping me to the best of their ability but it not really working. cody is talking to me and it kinda getting my mind offa things but i still feel then need to cuddle and cry on someones sholder and well i cut things compleatly off w/ my ex feiance. i dont think hell ever be ready to settle down. weve been engauged off and on for 8 years. i still have both of my rings. i needot getmy high school ring back fromhimand give himhis back!! i cant deal w/ a cheater/liar. thats all he dose. i just feel i need to cut my loses. theres nothing else to do. so much is going on righrt now. wish i could take a break from existing. and on that note nap time.
