It seems more often and more often I sit wondering why do I even keep trying. My life just pretty much sucks. I just can't seem to get things together. Lately it seems I think about death alot. Don't know why, just have been. Sometimes it just gets so hard to stay positive and not let things or people bother you. I've gotten really good at hiding my pain from others but it's really getting to be too much to bear. The only thing that has been keeping me going is my faith in God. That has been my only reason for living. I have nothing else. I have no home, barely holding onto a car, have no money and have no one in my life. I've always been able to pick myself up but lately it's like what's the point. Just soooo tired........