Growing up I never figured anyone one could hurt me to the point that I couldn't get over it...... I have always been a strong person, always been able to pick up and move on , never really giving it a second thought. Now there has been someone who has came into my life and let me have the joy of getting to know them personaly and the laughter and joy we shared has been like none other I have ever known.. Now that joy is not like it use to be the laughter is far apart, the dreams and hopes we shared are now just that dreams.. The memories come crashing in like a sand storm blinding all thats right in front of me...You know when your hurt so bad that you can't let another close to you, that there must of been something really special about this person.. I guess all I have is bitter sweet memories Of once was and could Of been.... The silent tears still fall when I think of the times we shared that are no more... The echoing of your laughter and the teasing to see how I would react are all in the distants.. As I close my eys I still see your face the smile with the corky lil laugh echoing out because of something you thought was so funny... As the days past you would think the pain would go away and the hurt wouldn't hurt no more but it is just like it happened yesterday..... Theres been no real good byes. But my life seems so empty without you in it everyday. Where we go wrong????? Maybe some day the silent tears will stop amd the break of my heart stop aching and yearning for you... Until then know your in my thoughts each and everyday