So would you like to see a glimpse of my world? Yes, then read the poem a good friend of mine wrote! He's an excellent writer and gives the closest insight to my life. People ask me why i do this....that's not really easy to explain. I don't expect ppl to understand me or why i do this (cause i know unless they have done it before or have been really close to someone who has cut they have no clue our reasons), i do however expect ppl to accept it, they can't change it and i would if i could, (i have tried) but it's not an easy task. So plz just accept it I CUT MYSELF! i accept it so why can't you?
A Cutter's Lament!
cutters lament - this poem is a sympathy poem for cutters
little silver blade of peace
problem solver for my beast
slowly cross my arm and leg
take away the pain i beg
just a little just a bit
take away my world of shit
let it spill from me this blood
feel it coursing mmm so good
see my river see my stream
see my fucked up little dream
feel the heat running down
paint my body and the ground
oh the blades sweet caress
gentler than mothers breast
tiny crimson cotton candy
round me like a halo strewn
stupid fucking little brain
soon you'll sing a different tune
you'll not cry and you'll not hurt
i'll burn the seas and drown the dirt
see my marks see my scars
all you see is sweetest pause
from the worst of hurt and pain
real scars kill the heart and brain
fuck your judgement fuck your rules
i kill my pain with different tools
razor scissors scalpel knife
i glaze myself with liquid life
so break my heart and tear it out
for i won't scream and i won't shout
and you can't hurt me in the least
for i have found my blade of peace
i've secrets to control the beast
more scars mean more inner peace
by Yehoshuah Young
dedicated to those who have been there and those who have led them away