i just felt the shock of almost taking a break
and i thought i would be able to handle it
but the instant you said you wanted a break
i never thought one person could break my heart as much as you did
it wasn't even a break up
it was just a break because of school
a peity thing to wail over
but after you kept promising that you would never break up with me
or ever want a break
that broke my heart more than anybody has ever broken my heart before
and knowing that you kept begging me to stay this weekend
just so we could be together without me having to go to my dads or anything
and our anniversary being that weekend also
i never thought that i would actually let myself to believe in the promises you've made
it is going to take me awhile to believe you will never leave me
i still can't believe i actually thought you would come through with your promise
i was going to see if we could get online married
with a fake priest and everything
but i guess you wouldn't want to now
sometimes i wonder what my life would be like right now if i didn't have you
i know this much
i wouldn't have ever been as happy with anybody else for this long
you're the only guy i have ever lasted 9 months with
any other guy i would have already fell out of love with
but it's different with you
it's like you complete me
you make me whole
though it may seem like you always hurt me
you really don't
you bring my sun in my life than i could have ever hoped for
you are my sun and my moon
you bring me light
and you bring me dark
but either way
light always prevails over dark
though it may seem that dark will conquer over all
light always comes along and kicks the darknesses ass
so i think you for everything
for making me who i am now
you are my everything matt
and i love you
and i hope we never have to take a break
because it would kill both you and me i'm sure
it almost killed me
it felt like a dementor had already sealed it's kiss upon my lips
i was as if i was an oyster and someone took the squishy stuff out of me
i had no soul
just a hard shell on the outside
i will end it right here
before i get too carried away
i love you matt
and no matter what happens
i will always love you *mwauh*
