Sunshine lette's blog: "My poetry"

When I think of you, I see eyes of a wonderful lover, Heart of a father and hands so soft. So soft to hold your unborn child. I see you lead me into paradise where gorogus love birds cherp. Eternal to me means, You as mine forever(Husband and wife, Father and Mother). Where on a mission to start a new life together. When I think of you, I see your wings come down, swooping me up gently and flying away to that dream place we see as a couple. Nobody can compare to you or the terrific heart you have. We should never have to depart from eachother. Only you can sweep me off my feet All the bad aching pains I hold in my heart, Dissapear when you hold me. Your dreams interwind with me so we achieve our goals together. We will not go forward alone on achieveing our goals. As one, We will work together. At night when I look high in the sky, The stars light, Remind me of the stars entrance to your soul. There's nothing better then two meoldies becomming a sympthony. Now that's apporch the furture slowly and caustiously together!

I discovered what it feels to have someone. As I predicted it would be. As your presence is with me, Our bodies our pressed upon eachother. Everything else disappears as the softness of your body collides with mine. I'm taken over by ecstacy by this minute. The energy flowing between us as it starts feeding on our souls as we embrace eachother. Your heart beat ajust to mine. We watch this moment happen as we learn it. Like beginning taught in school. Two souls embrace eachothers aching heart. Dreams begin to shine upon eachother. Wishes fly above us. We as one,explore what the mind can't see with creativity. Letting everything take it's course and not stopping destiny's trail. The numbness of being alone starts fading away and time to take the chains off the trap So a new gap can be formed. All obstacles come clear to mind. The bite of glory comes over me. Imagination takes it's course. Without eachother near, We feel incomplete. Missing the completeness of our other half. The face that cannot be forgotten that was created by a dream. Comes to reality. It awakens the darkend soul. As nothing is changed, The future begins it's dreams.

Life without you would be cruel. Life for me would be empty, Sadness, and pain. There's no way I could live without you by myside. Life without you would be filled with darkness everywhere and the sky filled with clouds of tears. I would have a soul only you can refill. Life with you and love in it would be eternal. I want to take life to the risk of wrapping my life so complety around yours. I hold the key to my heart so I can turn it over to you and lock it in yours for life. My soul is powered But your love is the only thing in the world that keeps the electristy flowing. Everyday and hr, It is you who keeps me happy, Be myself, smile with stars in my eyes from you. Baby, Your love to me is something special that I treasure with chains around it So nobody else can take them off. Every night when you leave me for the next day to come, I cry with warm, happy tears. My tears have never turned out cold. Life gave me love from you the first day. This love has never felt so amazing. Knowning in time it would blond me with happiness. You've filled my life with joy, to awakening everyday with. Most of all, You filled it in, My heart and turned that joy to stronger love. I used to pray to God to give me someone as amazing as you and God gave me more! As we got to know eachother, It was my dream come true, Your real, Your my life. I could never ask for more loving and caring as you. There's nothing better in life to get then "you". Your my life now. Life without you would be empty, life without you would be miserable. I promise never to leave you. Not only have I wrote it, I will prove to you as time goes on. I promise never to brake your heart and always love you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you by my side as husband and wife. To you to be proud to make me the mother of your unborn children. I want forever to look you in the eyes to say everyday the 3 words that mean so much; I love you for all entral.

The first day I road over that hill, I could just see that I'd be with you. I knew one day I would have a chance with you. They way you touched me and held me, They way you smiled with joy, Just toom me into darkness, Where I knew I wouldn''t be alone. I just felt someone there. I knew it was you. There with your arms out to keep all that scares me in the dark away from me so I don't get harmed. I had butterflies in my tummy. Right then and there I new you were their to protect me. As time went on, The feeling of having butterflies grew stronger. I didn't want to stop those amazing butterflies down there. I waited and waited to hear those 3 words come out of your heart with meaning, with honour, with respect. Once you said " I love you", I couldn't help it but cry. Known I have someone who cares for me now. Those 3 words, echo in my head everyday. Everyday those 3 words circle around me like a lost cub trying to find it's mother. When the cub does fin it's mother, They hug eachother saying " I hope I never lose you again." I just couldn't believe how happy I was the day my eyes met yours. There was so much I could see in your eyes. The way you hugged me explained enough about you. One day though, I knew I would get hurt. I just waited for the day to come trembling with fear and tears rolling down my face slowly. I wanted this to be the first perfect relationship without getting hurt. I wwanted to be happy everyday with this person. I wanted this to be a memory of happiness not pain But I'll always love you forever and forgive you in time!

It's weird how life has differnt destinations for everyone. Mine hasn't made sense yet. All the happiness I've had turned into pain. All the dreams I've had turned into nightmares. The help I've given out was not taken into consideration. I've taken people out of the darknss and been left behind. The ones who were their, showed compassion. If I were to say good-bye, would anybody cry? Would people reconize that I'm gone? How can I smile when all has been devoured? Love taken away. Used to cover up someones past misersy. I try to smile But what is their to smile about? Why, When i needed help for my mistakes nobody was their to lend a hand? So alone, I try to climb back up the road to recovery. Beliefs and reliefs fail. I see visions of happiness float by in the distance. Not near enough to grab. I'm tired of this feeling I hold in side for so many years now. I want to close my eyes and reunite with those miles away up above. I see though, taken my life away thing won't get better for me. It's just adding bigger hole of pain and hurt So I'm comming to reality once again. Given another chance to regain that lost love, regain new memorys and to get the love I lost back. On the road to recovery, I'm growing stronger. Reuniting with everything. Making it way better then before. I'm still missing the one thing to contiune recovery and joy with. Letting that chance go away just to go back in time to save that one thing I crave for. Will it come back to me if I go back? Will I get it back so It can enjoy the new road of recovery and happiness with me? Should I give up? I hold on to the past; Living the pain still. The road to recovery is trying to pull me in to show me the right thing to do But I will not walk that destantion without the only one thing I want to grow with. So many new opportunitys have came my way. So many dreams have came. Love was seen and felt But I will not contiune this road with a certain person I grew with. That person is stuck in the past. I will await in the present for it to come to me. As long as I wait, Things will come back? Or do I have to move on? Without that one person I need and miss? I will not continue this road of recovery without you!