Dj Azrael King Of Kings's blog: "My Poetry"

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Someone once told me when you want something never give up well that's just what i'm doing giving up. I've tried so hard but to no avail, these thoughts & feelings for her are making my life a living Hell. I cant deny what I know is true. In my heart there is only you. My spirit is in constant torment & my heart is in painful agony because of a need that wont go away, wont disappear. What has come to pass is my greatest fear, that I might have found a love without compare. My world is fading my life is wading near the edge of the pool of dispair. I cant think of anything else without a thoughtof you being there. My instinct says to carry on but my heart knows that would be wrong so I'll end this poem by saying I Love You but we can never be so I'm letting you free to decide who you want because I know it can never be me.

Moonlight stars so bright but not as bright as the eyes of the goddess I seek tonight. Who's name shall not be uttered until the time is right. For she and only she can release the pain and hurt that has for so long plagued and tortured me. I never realized how it would be if I carried on a life wondering why I passed my one chance of happiness by. She has captured my heart and soul. For her there is nothing I would'nt do and nowhere I would'nt go. I want to locked within her gaze from now and until the end of my days. I would lay it all on the line sacrifice my life just to have the time and chance to make her mine. There are no words to explain the feelings I get when I speak her sweet name. Some say when you get this way there is no returning. I dont care each day she is away my soul is slowly burning with Passion and Love. This girl is one I dont deserve. With all I've done all I've seen she is still only a dream. Which one day I hope to make a part of my reality.

I've made my decent into the deep dark depths of a dream. What is lurking for me when I get to where I must go. That is a question I cant answer for I dont know. What is in store for all or anyone of us when we die. Where will we go will we burn or will we fly. That is for the Almighty one to decide. The choices are good, evil, & chaotic. What we choose depends on where we go. We choice good we will fly. We choose evil we will surely burn. We choose chaotic, which is good and evil, we may fly also there is a chance to burn and die. You have a lifetime to choose, so take your time, but before you die make sure you have made the right choice, that you've taken the right path, as I awoke from this Dream I began to think. What is the meaning, or purpose behind this dream, this nightmare, or was it just simply a message warning me to choose that I'm running out of time. You know what they say about dreams . Dreams are just a gateway to another reality, another realm of time, or an eye into the heart of your soul. As I thought this I decided to choose, but before I chose I fell asleep and began to dream again.

I'm going to die, but I will not fight. I'm here to face my fear, my fright. You are the one who has no soul. I am the one they call Night. One make one, Two becomes three. I am no longer the man I used to be. I am now the man they call fear, Death is here, come within my power and I will draw you near. Blood courses thru these veins. Hate is the only gain. The only thing In life I've learned is not to fight, but the hurt and anguish of eternal pain. I'm leaving mystery, I've won the fight. I have earned the right to gain the power to stop the pain and free my soul from the darkness of the Devil's hole. One makes me, Two becomes you, Three is the man I used to be, Four is the I am now, and Five is the man I will be. I am no longer the Hate, the Pain, or the Fear. I am me so in my body, my soul is together and I am finally free.

In your spirit, In your soul on the Earth your body will walk no more. There are times in your life when you have to fight just for spite to save your soul form where you dont want to go. Hell is a cold dark place where demons dwell, where the Devil fell from Heaven to Hell. Your heart is like a closed locked door you have to find the right person with the key, so they can set you free. Free to soar to Heaven above, or free to burn in Hell below. Heaven is a place past the boundries of outer space, where you dont have to worry about material things. Where Death and Pain have nothing to gain. Choose now cause it's time to die, so say goodnight, and try to speak of life no more.

Is there any Spirit left in my soul? Will I walk this road alone? Will this be my last fight? Will my death be the start of night? Am I going to see Heaven as an amazing sight? Will Hell give me an incredible fright? These are the questions I ask. These are the questions I would like to know about what I'm going to do, about where I'm going to go. Who I know, Who I will see. Will I go to Heaven or Hell that is up to the powers that may be. As these questions are answered I will know who I'm going to be, where I will go. I will never know what will be until the time for it to happen to me. Until that day I am blind when that day comes then I will see.

There is this Girl I adore. To her I would give my world. Is that what love is suppose to feel like. To me love has always been a myth. Something that is always there but never within my grasp. I have these thoughts within my mind,and this feeling of emptyness and longing within my heart. I've been told if it is there in front of you to take it and make it yours, but there is a fear inside of me. Because I'm scared to hold her close to me and speak three simple words that would change both our lives either for the wrong or for the right. So what should I do? Should I give into my greatest fear a three letter word I felt before but now deny should I lose what I know is what I want with all my heart. The decision really should not be a hard one to make, but everything is at stake. Well it is up to me to decide what will be. A decision not made lightly. If I go and it dont work then her heart I could break. That is one mistake I cant afford to make, but if I dont it could end up the same. Either way I'm going to hurt her or my heart. The feelings inside is ripping me apart. Love why does it scare me so. This Girl I adore if I dont make my move will be no more. Is that a price I am willing to pay. Going through my life wondering why 4 simple words I could never say. When I do know it's true 3 insignificant words 'I Love You'