Cutting me like a knife;
you exposed me to the light;
showing me where i was wrong;
but now it must end for you never where a friend;
never my friend only my pain;
like all things before it wasnt ment to be for me
This poem is what its like to live with borderline personality disorder
Betrayal
I lick my lips and taste your kiss. The wind is clear and crisp, how I wish you were near. The smell of lilies in the air, the night cold and long just like my song now that your gone.
Gone from me you flew out of the room to the one so sick and twisted! Can't believe you lied to me and I believed you so easily. She tried to comfort my fears as she took my tears. She has you now and I have the memories and gone are the tears you gave me. Can't you see you mean nothing to me.
Your betrayal will get you in the end my dear old friend. Dont come looking for me anymore or knocking on my door, for you are not welcome here anymore. You wasted time that wasn't mine. I hope this kiss has a bitter twist. For when you lied you lost mine.
Verse one:
Did you know that you stole my heart. But it feels like were two worlds apart. Did it feel like that for you dear, still I'm wishing that you were near. Can't belive its almost been a year since the day you left me here to dream. Can't wait to see your face again and explain all my fears to you.
Chorus:
I'm dreaming of you tonight cause thats all I have of you. Yes I'm dreaming of you tonight and all that we had (all that we had) cause I love you.
Verse two:
Wish you could have seen me there the day that you left (the day that you left) that summer day. I didn't know what to do without you in my life. All I could do was wish for you and pray for you to return to my life.
Cause...
Verse three:
What should I do without you?
What should I say to make it ok?
I look back at all our things we did and smile. I dreaming of you tonight cause thats all i have of you. I sit and know I can't wait on my bed knowing your the one I want. Their is no one on this earth that I wanted more then you because you were the one for me.
God bless you Richard though you died so young I did love you.
Broken Heart
Deep in the world;
Is a broken heart;
In the heart is two pictures;
one of me the other of you;
two worlds away;
but so close;
that they could almost touch;
The heart belongs to me;
because of you;
only you, heartbreaker
For the victim of my sweet bite
Looking thru all I have seen;
I pick up the black rose;
from the one that was sweet to me;
I prick my finger on its thorns;
My creamy white skin blends with the flowing red;
Slowly I take the finger to my lips looking at you full of lust;
Slowly taking the blood in I hunger for what truly makes me weak;
I see the vain in your neck pumping the blood so sweetly through your body;
I take your face in my hands and slowly kiss to that wonderful vain;
Then I take my sweet pleasure in your fear as I bite;
and take in your sweet wonderful blood, you my victim where so wonderful and sweet it; kind of saddens me that I took your life but then I remember the meal and smile.
A poem for the one that saves me
Mis labios son rojos pues la sangre mis brazos fríos y sin vida yo grita para que usted venga me ahorra pero usted no lo hace. Grito en dolor mientras que es mi lado stabed por los cazadores con todo usted todavía no viene. Me caigo y comienzo a morir otra vez no como ser humano sino como el que ahora los busca si solamente usted viene. Mi respiración retarda mi comienzo del corazón para congelar. Entonces fuera ningún donde usted viene rescatarme y de mí grita en sus brazos como usted libremente y me consolida.
detication to toby
sadness flows from my vains
Your touch is gone
your words a distant memory
all i see is the pain around me now that you have left me.
If only i payed more attention would you have stayed
If i taken that advice would you not be this way.
I am in forever pain since you got in that car and drove away
~Cj
Breath
Life starts with a breath
From that breath we grow
Growing leads to learning
Learning leads to love
Love lead me to you
and when you kiss me you take me back
and it all started with just one breath
~Cj
Broken heart
Deep in the world;
is a broken heart;
in the heart is two pictures;
one of me;
the other of you;
two worlds away;
but so close;
that they almost touch;
the heart belongs to me;
because of you;
only you, heartbreaker.
~Cj
