Nessa's blog: "Nini"

well about 39 min ago my bestfriend called and told me her aunt has about a couple hrs to live. that right there is killing me cause through out our friendship her family has become mine and that right there is my aunt. right now im here at work and time could not go any slower. i am hurting deep inside. nothing i do i cant the thought of the pain we are all going to indeer so close to the holidays. what can i do what can i say. nothing feels right. please just pary for her family and mine. well thanks to who ever reads this. Vanessa

well this past friday i got some more bad news. our family had another person pass away. so much shit is going on right now that adding that just sucks so bad. this man was like another grandfather to my family memebers. but what sucks the most is my lil cousin (matt) go so close to him once his dad passed away earlier this year and for him to lose more is just not fair. well just wanted to write this down cause it is killing me knowing all this pain my family is going through. :(

well i know most people on this site really dont know me. well these last couple of months have been hell for my family and my self..my uncle MATT DIMAS (R.I.P) was killed by a fucking drunk driver 2-24-06. The day of his birthday. our world was torn apart that day. we never got to tell him what a great guy he was and uncle brothr father husban. life to me now is so different now i try and let people know i love them and what i really think about them caues you never know when they will be taken away from you. just make sure you make every day count with your family and friends. i feel so lost right now cause i dont know what to do when i see my mom crying cause her brother is gone. what can i do to stop that pain that i feel inside..this fucking hate i have deep in me eating me alive.