Bladewalkertrade aka KiernanPsyChoSeMaTi...'s blog: "Of Myth and Madness...."

cuz sometimes it's the only way i know what to say....

Old L.A. Tonight [O.Osbourne - Z.Wylde - J.Purdell] Look In The Future Look In To My Eyes And Tell Me Everything's All Right Tell Me Where We're Going I'm So Afraid 'Cos I Don't Know What's Going On With My Life But It'll Be All Right Tonight Will It Be All Right Tonight Are We Doing All Right In Old L.A. Tonight? Sitting By The Ocean Mapping Out My Plans Of Action, Baby They Include You I Wish You'd Send A Message Maybe I'm Just Better Off Not Knowing Who Knew But It'll Be All Right Tonight I'm Gonna Be All Right Tonight Are We Doing All Right In Old L.A. Tonight? Those Summer Nights When I Look In Your Eyes I'm Falling To Pieces, Pieces Out Of My Mind And I'll Never Know Why I'm Falling To Pieces, Pieces Who Could Imagine Such A Thing Could Happen To You? It's Gonna Be All Right In Old L.A. Tonight Those Summer Nights When I Look In Your Eyes I'm Falling To Pieces, Pieces Out Of My Mind And I'll Never Know Why I'm Falling To Pieces, Pieces It's Gonna Be All Right In Old L.A. Tonight

Would that I could cut away this flawed flesh, sculpt it into a more perfect skin. Would that I could make myself believe in what others find acceptable. Yet I cannot, I will not. Though their cruelty fills me with sorrow, though their persecution makes me ill to the point of retching, I will not bow down to the status quo and deny who and what I am just to make others feel more comfortable. So I will stand alone on this battlefield as always, knee-deep in the blood and gore of my enemies, my armor once again broken and battered, blades dull from my kills. I will give no sympathy, give no quarter: I will be as dead as dead can be to all save my allies, those of which are very few. *sigh* I grow so weary of this- weary of the battle, weary of people expecting me to justify my every action and reaction. The shields grow heavier with each attack, my helm is cracked, and I don't know how much longer my mail will hold. But I will go down fighting.

I am calm- the deadly calm that comes before the storm which will consume and rip apart all who attack and oppose me. These humans never learn. They accuse me of hexing them, yet do I not struggle with the rest? If I were truly the greedy sorceress everyone paints me to be, would I not have cash flowing like a river from my pocketbook instead of wondering if the rent will be paid? What these fools fail to realize is if I truly wanted to unleash my fury, no amount of holy water or relics would be enough to remove the stain upon their souls. Yet I swallow my rage- choke on the bile that rises from their insolence and ignorance- for these human scum are not worth wasting an ounce of my chi. Still, the Beast rattles her cage, baring her fangs, hissing and spitting as she strains against her shackles. Yet continue to provoke me, continue the petty accusations, the unwarrented attacks, and nothing will be able to chain the Beast when she is loosed. And there will be none to blame save those that loosed her.

that is all

i'm dead as dead can be- what do i care for promises in the dark? i'm a living dead girl with razorblade kisses and bette davis eyes, holding out for a hero on this highway to hell cause i can't drive 65. i tried so hard but, got so far and in the end i was breaking the brackets. cuz it's all in my head i think it about over and over again.... but i'm breaking the habit tonight. so, get in tha pit and love someone- we're going to dance.... we're going to dance... we're going to dance.... and have some fun!!

Bladewalker- she who ever walks the edge- neither dark nor light, neither wrong nor right, neither black nor white- always grey.

I am kunoichi- cold as the steel of my blade. I feel nothing but the blood of my victims flowing down my fingers, numb, emotionless. I take no pleasure in the suffering of my victims, take no satisfaction from my deeds. Yet it is what I am- it is what I do. Pain defines me. Brutality is within me. And that is all I know.

Something has changed within me Something is not the same I'm through with playing by the rules Of someone else's game Too late for second-guessing Too late to go back to sleep It's time to trust my instincts Close my eyes: and leap! It's time to try Defying gravity I think I'll try Defying gravity And you can't pull me down! GLINDA Can't I make you understand? You're having delusions of grandeur: ELPHABA I'm through accepting limits 'Cuz someone says they're so Some things I cannot change But till I try, I'll never know! Too long I've been afraid of Losing love I guess I've lost Well, if that's love It comes at much too high a cost! I'd sooner buy Defying gravity Kiss me goodbye I'm defying gravity And you can't pull me down: (spoken) Glinda - come with me. Think of what we could do: together. (sung) Unlimited Together we're unlimited Together we'll be the greatest team There's ever been Glinda - Dreams, the way we planned 'em GLINDA If we work in tandem: BOTH There's no fight we cannot win Just you and I Defying gravity With you and I Defying gravity ELPHABA They'll never bring us down! (spoken) Well? Are you coming? GLINDA I hope you're happy Now that you're choosing this ELPHABA (spoken) You too (sung) I hope it brings you bliss BOTH I really hope you get it And you don't live to regret it I hope you're happy in the end I hope you're happy, my friend: ELPHABASo if you care to find me Look to the western sky! As someone told me lately: "Ev'ryone deserves the chance to fly!" And if I'm flying solo At least I'm flying free To those who'd ground me Take a message back from me Tell them how I am Defying gravity I'm flying high Defying gravity And soon I'll match them in renown And nobody in all of Oz No Wizard that there is or was Is ever gonna bring me down!