For my friends who know me well they already know that I have a rare disease that eats away at me daily some days more than others and by nature I don't complain I can take alot of pain I'm good like that recently after visting a group home that uses electic shock to cure(there is no cure idiots)children like my son no its not electric shock like we think of its a braclet that sends a small volt everytime the child makes a life skills mistake and hey if some parents belive that works thats there porogotive(spelling I know refer to first blog)but I have accecpted and LOVE my son for who and what he is I worry about him sure he has a innocence and unalertness I guess is a good word for it. hes really sweet and misunderstood also tends to set his attion one way and can't be swayed to think of anything till he finished what he starts ANYWAYS I'm rambling I'll get to my point witch is I want him to grow and learn but still be himself as quircky and sweet as he is. My biggest fear is I'll get sick his father will be overwhelmed and as much as i love my family and I know they would want to be right with him no one knows him or how to handle him I mean I can't find a babysitter never mind someone to care for him if something should happen to me. That leaves a group home witch can be great but no one there woul;d love him and I doubt he'll get many vistors these are the that keep me up at night if your still reading thankyou I really need to vent so thanks!!!
Jenn
