Katzmeow's blog: "Pain is my muse"

Suicide My life without you would be a total waste of breath A life not worth living loneliness invading Sinking deeper into my dark despair Slipping farther away from reality My mind an ocean of tender memories I cannot move forward for fear of regret Loss of the memories that barely keep me alive Hanging, just hanging dangling from a string Fragile and wearing this string is growing thin My life is feeling worthless tired and alone I cannot face the music I cannot carry on Peace come to me softly and pain, please be quick My life without you, Love Was a total waste of breath 1999

Lonely, aching for your touch Long gone I remember the old you I miss the you I once knew Whatever happened to you? You hurt me once You hurt me twice Never again will you play me I hold the cards I've got the upper hand Mr 180 what happened to you I greet you on the street and meet a strangers eyes Cold, unfeeling and dark What ever happened to you? What did he do? You hurt me once You hurt me twice Never again will you play me I hold the cards I've got the upper hand Yesterday you crossed my path reached out to me, tears in your eyes Don't you get it? You had your chance Come and gone you strayed too long You hurt me once You hurt me twice Never again will you play me I hold the cards I've got the upper hand How does it feel on the receiving end?

Sex is like money you never seem to have enough everyone elses looks more fun it makes you do stange things and things you'd like to forget what is it about sex and money the spell the two combine that makes you want to show me yours and me to show you mine

Love flowing through my veins Soothing my spirit Licking my wounds Love is like a river crisp... clean... fresh... cool and comforting warm and inviting it changes with my moods Love is like waterfall torrential current, swift It knocks you off your feet Swept away by it's passion

I yearn to sculpt you Beautiful face fine lines and angles Your lips...sensual tantalizing Shoulders broad Chest so fine Michaelangelo's David Adonis... Beauty... To capture your beauty is to capture your soul.

A tear runs silently down my cheek Tickles a trail, and leaps from my chin Tears flowing freely no longer trapped within

Fear Cold Chilling An icicle piercing my heart An avalanche burying my soul

Failure Face it You're finished! Through... Done with... Get over it you God Damned optimistic Bitch!!! Give up. Go home. Quit. Failure

Wicked Who would have known flirting could lead to such dangerous liaisons? I would have known, had I been there, or had you told me... I would have whispered Beware... For I know how the mind of a woman works I know the spell she casts And if you're sitting unaware a dangerous web she will spin You begin wondering, Questioning, Is this how I feel? Yes, she whispers in your ear You feel the barriers start to fall She sees it Yes, she is aware She's almost got you where she wants you She's going to have her way So forget the consequences you may later have to pay Live life for the moment a day is just a day 1999