SweetMestiza's blog: "Poems..."

"Why is it that everytime I think im over you I just fall for you all over again when i see a picture of you or think of you. Maybe its becuz I think about you constantly and cant seem to shake these feelings from my heart. My heart is broken into a million pieces but with every little broken piece I still love you so much. Will this hurt ever go away? I just keep tripping over my heart and all the feelings I have bottled up inside for you. I look so happy on the outside but on the inside im dying. I just want for you to talk to me. How do I stop crying when the one guy who can help me to stop crying is the one whos making me cry in the first place??"

My heart is Torn in so many directions, I think I love him but I just dont know, Why is love and life so complicated? It plays mind tricks on you everyday, Pulling you here and pushing you there, Not letting you get a thought in edgewise, It wont let you stop to think things through, It throws one thing after another at you, Making you decide on the spot what to do, Thats why my heart is torn in so many direction, And I just dont know what to do!

Last nite I lived in the sweet memory that I hold deeply in my heart,. Those happy hours spent with you the joy of us being together, The sound of my heart beating as I lay listening to your heart beat, The feel of you holding me as we lay there in each others arms, Will we ever have another chance to be close together again? I dont now the answer to that. But in my heart I hold onto those oh so sweet memories.

A poem I wrote in high school The sweet smell of roses hung in the air, The sun shining brightly in the blue sky. I run my fingers through my silky hair, Thinking of the moment he said "Good-bye!" My heart was broken and I thought I'd die, Alone, I'm another face in the crowd. Lost to the world with my head held up high, Gazing up at the perfect heart-shaped cloud. Feelings such as these should not be allowed; I wish all these hurtful feelings would cease. I feel as if I'm underneath a shroud, All around me the soothing sounds of peace. I never thought that love could be like this; I had sealed my fate with a deadly kiss. Dixie J. Crowe