killjoy's blog: "poems"

After a year I turned the corner And our eyes caugt love's glance As with every time I see you, My spirit lifted up to dance. Delighted in your presence, Ecstatic at your vision, The unity that i feel, Can only be fates provision. Such a sense of oneness As we walked out into the night, The feeling of your beauty, Bathes like summer light. Longing has taught me patience, And love has made me wise, Life has taught that to be the best, Stand fast and never compromise. I have seen you for two years, And well happily wait plenty more, So that when I come home, You'd greet me at the door. So if the planet permists, We shall live as one, And everyday shall be a comfort, Like the warmth of the rising sun. Your eyes are as doves, That make joy in me to rise, And to have you as my wife, Shall be a lover's paradise.

Why must people play with emotions Why must they play with hearts Why must peopl set in motion Feelings that threaten to tear it apart Why must people put on a mask Why must they hide behinde a lie Why do they do anything you ask Just to do stuff to make you wanna die Why do people tell you they care Why do they tell you they want you too Why do they then disapear And to bring them back your not told what to do Why must love be such a tragic emotion Why does it so easily turn to despair Why do i feel i drown in an ocean Just because she told me she'd care.

It started so sad, the way my world fell apart shes going to leave me that was my fear from the start the way she was actin does she really care it was just to much to feel my heart tear that was the feeling it feels so long ago the wound is mending our love will grow those thoughtswere pointless i have nothing to fear i know that she loves me and i will hold that dear ill go through changes to show how i feel ill prove it to her shell know my love is real to keep my mouth shut learn to keep my distance if i can do this shell give less resistance oh so overwhelming the things i must do so she will know i love her i know this is true but thats all over all those things i felt are through and this is now Dominique I LOVE YOU

im fallin apart so easy to die she toys with my heart brings tears to my eyes im the one and only so she says with a smile wants someone beside me should i walk that mile let her do what she pleases let her have another man oh GOD help me JESUS i dont know if i can she wants my permission to be with another should i go into submission pretend theres no bother can my mind stay sane will my heart stay whole can i pretend it didnt happen not bring it up again or will i be nappin in my own pool of sin

I messed up my future I pushed away my lover I wish she were my wife happily I would give my life to stand by her side and make her my bride I love her more than anything i would give her everything one day I hope she will see that I am changing me and shes always been the one for me Its tearing me apart to know i lost her heart feelings from my past caused in her a laps and now i push them away in hopes she'll return one day. how easy it wouldve been to end my life just then i get lost inside her eyes it makes me want to cry I know she'll be there to the end but for now only as a friend