SweetCutiePie's blog: "poetry all that i have left"

one guy amazing kid everyone loves him i mean he had it all wit, smarts, looks, sense of humor, etc. and i was lucky enough to have been with him and supposdily he loved me which is a word i highly doubt ill ever use again offered me a ring we were just waitin to set a day but yea im young so just like everyone said it woudlnt work out it didnt and because i did one thing wrong i messed the whole fucking thing up i realized my mistake and gotten on my hands and knees and pleaded for your forgiveness and i would wake up every morning just so i could make a plan to see or talk to you but its all good youve moved on you have a new women while i sit and wait one word of advice for myself never fall for a guy

you said for me to tell you thank you i said for what and you replied with a matter a fact kind of way "because i gave you your freedom" and i could have just said thank you to this gentlemen and been on my way but i felt all the fury inside burst and i said i fought for my freedom just like you did with a puzzled look on his face he said young lady you have never even seen hardship and as i stared into his glassy eyes i saw my whole life flash before my eyes and i realized maybe it was the other way around maybe he had never seen hardship maybe what i had seen he wouldnt be able to endure because he had been in war and the mind can cope a little better when they are aware that they are in a time of warfare but when you dont expect it it can only damage should he have thanked me? because he didnt have to see those things. if he saw his mother murdered would he become clincly insane or if his father saved his life but losthis own wouldhe have commited suicide if he had noone that thanked him would he still be here

I remember the night its all surreal to me now but when i close my eyes i can feel all the pain and anguish rushing back like im stuck in a hopeless nightmare but you saved me almost like a heavenly thing to make that unbearable pain stop... and because that you helped me you had to perish you could have lived a good life but you wanted me to see that there is actualy good in this corrupt world. sometimes i hate you for this i wish you wouldnt have traded me places. then other times im so grateful...almost like a secnd chance..for hope ...but atleast when i close my eyes i can still see you thats why i would love to just sit there with my eyes closed forever so i couldbe with you to let you know that i never forgot you....because i know when i lift my eyelids you will be no where in sight