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posted on 07/05/2009&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;07:07&nbs-07:00;pm

Seeds of doubt
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In awe of moments past,
Dust begins to gather,
For a love doomed to last,

Broken promises or a twist of fate?,
Peicing together carelessly uttered lies,
All to soon I was a little to late,

Echoing within my dreams,
I thought you knew me?!!!!,
Deafening are my screams,
Transparently you were supposed to see through me!!!

Yet you have seen nothing of me!,
How dare you judge!!,
You on your pedestal so high above me,

Unaware of your own personal brutus,
A betrayal of the worst kind,
As if you are to her as Jesus were to judas,

Trusting in one so shameless?,
Where does this weakness sprout?,
Gazing upon her garden blameless,
Planting seeds of doubt,

Keep a weary eye for this ones instruction,
For a creator of lies leads to loves destruction.

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posted on 07/05/2009&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;07:07&nbs-07:00;pm

I remain
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I wish you could have seen my heart,
The torment from with in pulling me apart,
Demons for which I could not thwart,

pushing away my guard never falling,
Despite the fact you were calling,
Overwhelmed and barely crawling,

I hid in this place away from you,
Alone I cried missing you,
Regeting everything I did to you,

Could you not hear the tremble in my voice?!,
Did you not know I felt as though there was no other choice?!,

Willingly I break your heart and my own,
Discarding the only love I have ever known,
Dying with in only beginning to grow,

To late but only now can you understand?,
My unwillingness to stretch out my hand,
Emotionally crippled no longer could I stand.

Do you really believe I left you bound and raped?,
Lost in an illusion without escape?
None of these did I create,

In hearing this I am left shaken,
Have you simply forgotten or merely mistaken,

I know there was a time I wasnt there for you,
But do you believe there was a time I didnt care for you,
Now wishing there were so many things I would've shared with you,

Forgiveness is not what I seek,
For mine is a heart so weak,
Fearing a future cold and bleak,

Few certainties I know to be true,
Though one of which that I do,
Heart and soul I remain with you,

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posted on 07/05/2009&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;06:07&nbs-07:00;pm

We can forget...
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Here I go again...Questioning myself,

Was she right? am I really crazy?,
Extracting falsehood from her shelf?,
DAMN IT!!!!STOP WITH THE DOUBT!!!,
We know who we are!,
Calm again...no longer a shout,
Yet here I go pacing the floor,
Nerves racing, I reach for a smoke,
And head for the door,
Yes a smoke will do, it will do just fine,
But only for a moment,
As I am unconciously locked in my mind,
What if shes right and I am truely flawed?,
Explanations for the letting of blood,
Scarred flesh previously clawed,
STOP IT!! TAKE A DRAG OF YOUR CIGERETTE!,
Let the nicotine take its hold,

We'll close our eyes and just try to forget it,
Let go and let loose the penitration,
For to ponder this is little more,
Than a mind fucking repeatitive masturbation...

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posted on 07/05/2009&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;06:07&nbs-07:00;pm

Eventually
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A profilgation of blood,
Spewing forth,
Consuming...devouring,
A terenchal flood,

Dripping ruby's
From razors and lips,
Iron flavoured...bitter...sweet,
Infection of flesh and disease,

Fixed in an eternal gaze,
Form now somber,
Ultimately satisfing this ocean,
Bathing in this reddish haze,

Once warm and full of life,
Now rigid...evermore.

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posted on 07/05/2009&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;06:07&nbs-07:00;pm

"FEATHER"
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Me...ME!?What am I doing?!!,
Brooding!...,
And sick of those...Those!!!,
With constant need of verbal defication,
Faceless without explination,
Cowardess!!!,
Hide behind your facade!,
Watching...waiting,
Struggling for a reaction,
This is all you have around you collapsing!!,
You!...You are nothing!!!,
Madonna are you not!,
Content with the loss of one,
So easily forgotten?
Though the wound is still fresh,
In covering these wounds,
She exposes scarred flesh,
Flawed!,
You shall remain alone,
Trapt in your own web of lies,
Flawed!!,
You shall remain alone,
Far from those who would hear your cries,
And you are NOTHING!!!,
For to my own self,
I shall be true,
Envoking Karmic debt,
A deed I will personally see through!

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