Forbidden Indulgence's blog: "Poetry"

I need to escape; break away from this hell My incubus has me under his spell Enslaved by what’s pure, sophisticated, and refined How can my life be so intertwined There has to be more than all that I am A life of a lady I’m forever condemned To scream out in frustration, or pain, even pleasure Is forbidden for someone whose virtue is treasured I have the desire to be eternally here I hope that my memory will persevere Immortality is something that few can obtain It’s not for the shy timid mentally sane Will ever I be what I am in my mind? Will I ever break free of the pure and refined? I have failed no matter whom I chose to be So I will sit back and wonder, who is the real me?

Fare thee well bright sunny days forever lost in endless dreams These fickle wishes of timeless love eternally block your beams The silent screams deafen my ears and darkness lights the room While lonely emptiness restrains me and invades my happy tomb Solitude and isolation keep me company so I’m not alone Deadly secrets hidden deep within sit proudly on their throne The angel of virtue would rescue me if I had not clipped her wings Wicked delusions entrap me instead and inflict their deadly sting The time to face the truth has come; no longer am I free I have no other one to blame; the fault now falls to me I chose the path I walk on now; it was never laid before I left the battle before the end and the penalty I chose to ignore The cost of my ignorant surrender was more than just defeat I could have had my hearts desire but lost it all by my retreat I now fight for a shadow of what was once my own But I cannot calm the fear in me as I stare at the unknown