mystrangebrew's blog: "poetry"

pushed and pulled love and hate it is what it is is it fate another year older a little colder left alone like a broken dream I look down thee stream of my life and wonder why I have to feel this pain is so sureal hope for the future but can't look past all the pain that has smacked my ass another year done turned by the sun I wish I had it in me just to run alas I cannot I am not built like that I can't leave behind the little ones..in my mind I know THAT feeling all to well thinkn of it makes my eyes swell I wonder if one day things will be different then this hell I prey for strength but feel very weak not dead yet, and I know I can walk this street I allways have never broken but I look to something to call a token.... fucked up inside and out... have no doubt this cats a trip without a whip more passion then most but I'll never boast its not within its not my style I will never stop walking that mile....

Who is this that makes me feel How I didn't think, could be real You've glimpsed inside and are not afraid Deep within I feel so frayed Over endless bound I feel I could walk I feel so alive when we talk For I cannot tell yet if this is real Every fiber tells me to feel Each new day has a bitter taste Low and behold, this I cannot waste Sarrow has allways seemed to hold me down Over my dead body, I'll refuse to frown Depths of my heart you may become Eventually we may, be as one Eternal love is how I live Poised and guarded, but I want to give....

At a time when I and serching for life People seem to appear so nice Right from the start...the is something different Is it me or is it the way I percieve Love will one day come to me All I wanted was to fee the love Powerfull within me, with no end Ripped out is my heaart.. in two Is she the one to mend it through? Lonely has been this time and space Time will tell what lies ahead Days of wonder..or only dread All I can do is keep going Have a posetive outlook and just try And pry to god she doesn't make me cry

why does this bother me so wears on me untill I could blow so many things I have had to cope you have no idea, its no joke could have been worst...this I know I wish this little feeling inside would grow I am good natured...even a gent even when I need to vent I am told I have a wonderful heart I feel so much pain and have from the start I am not dead... and stronger I feel for all my crosses feel so real I just prey ..one day they'll heal

I look to the night sky and what do I see Looking back down right at me Lovely stars, and they are so old No one knows the stories they have told Eternity it seems when grasped by thier aww Voice's could never describe the feeling Entrance to the far beyond Riches are fine, but can't compair For they have the knowlage, power, and memory Over more than what is thought to be Restless minds once contemplate you see Give to them your mind you may Every night, and every day Though its in you heart, whence this starts Young and old alike, its never to late Only you can make that choice Under the skies, with a beautiful voice Be carefull the choice's you make And know that sometimes it is to late Because time goes on, it waits for none Eveyone must live with the choice's that are done

Is this life, these choice's we make Just another decision or tempting fate Lost in a sea of confusion With endless thoughts Colds winters night creeps in slow everything telling me I should go If I only knew this love wasn't to grow It would have been better just not to know I craved you so much in my heart Wanting to know everthing from the start Now I am alone..left in the dark I move on through this painfull world Thrown about with bitter things herd I listen not to this hateful speach I know inside I have much to teach So I look onward...feeling with reach The greatest gift anyone can give Is you heart to another Friend or lover Friendship are the goods in life The ties that bind love that is kind word so hard to forget live for today with no regret

I looked, I asked, and she replied She speaks of wonders when I look in her eyes Such a glorous sight Up high in the sky In the middle of the night when I feel I could die Her beauty reminds me To look within To find a key The answers are there grown in like a tree To unlock the god, the godess, and the animal in me

Drawn in by her sweet speech laid upon me like such a leech How was I to be fool so Had no idea she was such a ho Blinded by love and sweet caressThat women made my head a fuckin mess I opened my mind, heart, and soul like never before alas in the end she was just a whore as so the future is untold What I fear the most is my heart grow cold Such a fire I posess deep within Yet such anger lies right under my skin All I ever wanted was to be understood I should have known she was hood I leave it behind, its for the best I will never give up and never rest one day my dues be paid, all debts settled Find my soul mate, and once again see The wonder and delight that lives within me