Sinsweetee's blog: "Poetry"

On my mind All the time Don't ever not Want you in my life Down for you, Down for whatever, For better or worse- I'm yours! Locked under your spell Baby I'd follow you to Mars Test me--you'll find it's true So happy to be yours! Just love me like I do you. ~SM written 4/25/05

We live our lives by the clock more concerned with hours and minutes rather than feelings and lives Got to keep on keepin' on Got to get ahead. Don't look back at all you lose in the race against Father Time Just hold on to the memories (if you can) and keep on keepin' on ~SM written 10/23/89

Listen; The future echoes the past. What is not today will be yesterday and what is here now will not exist in the future Ignorance is what we all have in common Knowledge is the key, but money is what it's all about Listen; The future echoes the past. And a million yesterdays ago shine in the eyes of a child that has not yet been born ~SM written 9/9/89

The fear in my footsteps was mistaken for thunder I trembled at the thought of your touch. I was too shy to wonder if maybe it was you who was scared, assuming I was the only coward. I didn't like to think I wasn't self assured-- but it's true I knew not what love meant. (Catch me if you can!) Your eyes taunt me Your body teases me Your voice whisperes in my ear before I fall asleep (Catch me if you can!) But if I caught you, what would I do with you? I don't even know what love means.

One beat of my heart-- Badly timed-- Missed it's mark Never knew what damage a misplaced emotion could do. Not my fault cupid failed you now: I never wanted you to love me! I just let an illegal beat free... ~SM written 7/23/89

Wherever you are, Whatever you are doing, take a minute and listen to your heart. Though distance may separate us, memory serves me well. For when time is too much I look back on the moments last shared. And through all this empty space that divides us my spirit sends one feeling through the stars to you... Listed to your heart; it's all there, written into destiny This is for you; my one and only. This time, it's forever. ~SM written 6/22/89

Lying here next to you I feel your hardness against the curve of my arse Arms encircling my frame,holding me close; intended to embrace yet serving to constrain. I am invaded as I feel your..... you push so deep and strong and hard and then you tell me how GOOD it is and I lie and say OH god baby it is But my well is dry, lying bare the untruth. Undaunted, your antics increase: faster or harder or deeper and slower and then-- just when I can't take another thrust it's over (don't blink!) I overflow now, brimming with unfertilized life Spent, you turn away as I lay here drumming my fingers on the bedsheet ~SM written 08/10/05

You'd like to believe that after a while the pain becomes silent. With the time that passes, it eases, but A single word can bring it all back... A memory caught in a melody or a thought held in my arms Nothing is gone forever. Not even pain. And one day the words won't bring back moments shared with you and one day the heart won't break from a love that failed And I can hold the roses of a hope that never dies and there won't be any thorns to draw a drop of blood from my fingertip ~SM written 9/9/89

I'm not saying I love you Cos it might scare you away. I'm not giving you everything, cos we should save SOMETHING for a rainy day! I'm not trying to fool you-- but you should hear what I'm not saying. You should know I'm not ready to do the things you want Yet you force me into doing simple pleasures that satisfy you and compromise my principles I should know, but I'm confused... Do you hear what I'm not saying? Because I don't think I ever would be able to tell you that I want you but that I shouldn't have you Cos I know better than to get you angry and you know better than to get too bold You ask too much of me and I give too little to you You think you should have anything anytime you want it BUT You've forgotten how to ask...you're too used to taking. Do you hear what I'm not saying? Cos I don't think I ever could tell you you're wrong when I should I'm used to talking and you're used to turning away. Do you hear what I'm not saying? What I shouldn't have to say? Cos I don't want to lose you... ~SM written 2/5/88

Beloved, I'll hold you dear Close to my body Always in my heart Memory grows weak while time continues on but thoughts of you are cherished. Beloved, You will not go forgotten into my past when Fate tears us apart because feelings as deep as mine are for you cannot be forgotten so soon. So my heart will hold you for as long as you want to be held and I will cherish our love, my beloved ~SM written 10/26/89