CoinOperated's blog: "Poetry"

A cloud of darkness, surrounded my soul My heart was weary, out of control I needed peace, to see me through When I'd lost all hope, I found you So now I see much brighter days You took all my sadness away I feel the warmth of your candlelight I see it in your eyes tonight When I was weak, you were there Didn't waste time, you showed you care You believe in me, and believe in us For that, I give you all my trust So now I see much brighter days You took all my sadness away I feel the warmth of your candlelight I see it in your eyes tonight So now we dream, of whats to come How we'll build, our happy home Of how our lives, will play on through And of the day, we'll say I do So now I see much brighter days You took all my sadness away I feel the warmth of your candlelight I see it in your eyes tonight I see it in your eyes tonight...

Darkness eats at me, the crown of thorns digs in my mind I can't seem to get the thoughts out of my head The end of the beginning of the end, everyday is the same The newness of it faded from my mind ages ago The shroud of pain covers me like a blanket It consumes my fears and smothers me with them I fought at it for so long before I stopped the fight Like a hair caught in my throat forever it aggravates me Today the fangs of life ripped my flesh into pieces I lay here bleeding my life and happiness out slowly A tournaquet would only procrastinate the end The end will come and suck out my life eventually Take the last drop and savor my sweet death I will be found and lost at the same time by someone Someone who gave a damn about my meager existance Who knows how they will feel when they see me empty My failure could infect another with the same lack of life And so I continue to fight my shroud of misery and go on I let them think I am happy as always but I continue on

God help me I'm broken I fell to my knees and cried I feel so alone in this world I'm reaching for your hand to lift me and my spirit Please pick me up off the floor Please remind me why you brought me here An angel with her wings torn off, I lay Covered in my own blood and dying In this world of unkindness and torture Show me your light and help me to my feet Help me fix my wings and continue my fight I am alone without you Lord, I pray Please either make me whole or take me away I looked to the sky for an answer and waited No reply... *sigh*

How many times are we gonna do this? How many times can we fight through this? I messed up and see that I was wrong But I know in my heart that I belong Without this my life means nothing You give my soul something To believe in with all my heart I wish I'd known that from the start I fall to pieces in my dreams I'm fallin apart at the seams I fight another day to keep it in To hide the sadness deep within You've given me so much grief At night I pray for some relief It's killing me to see you hurt I want to give you what you deserve It's like nothing can ease your pain It's like we'll never be the same I try to tell myself that we're ok And it seems to kill me more each day I'm dying inside to save you But still it seems we won't get through Can we save you, can we save me Can we fight the world just to be In love and wrapped in each others arms Where we'll be kept safe from harm Is it over.... you gotta tell me Is it over.... can we live and just be In love and wrapped in each others arms Where we'll be kept safe from harm Kept safe from harm... Can we live and just be... How many times are we gonna do this? How many times can we fight through this?

"Silence" I watch how you've escaped me Thrashed my heart and walked away When all I wanted was to say I love you You didn't give me that chance today. You stopped me in my footsteps You shattered my world apart You said you didn't want me anymore You broke my fucking heart! All I ever wanted was your love All I ever needed was some faith Everything I could've asked for Was never mine to take, You took everything from me As I watched you walk away Inside I heard myself scream But silence got in the way... At first I thought it was a dream I laughed as I wiped away the tears I reached for you to find my comfort As I was gripped with reality and fears. You left my soul broken Tomorrow will not be ok I refuse to let it be While I suffer today. All I ever wanted was your love All I ever needed was some faith Everything I could've asked for Was never mine to take, You took everything from me As I watched you walk away Inside I heard myself scream But silence got in the way... Silence got in the way... Inside I screamed for you... Silence got in the way.. All I ever wanted was your love All I ever needed was some faith Everything I could've asked for Was never mine to take, You took everything from me As I watched you walk away Inside I heard myself scream But silence got in the way... Silence got in the way... Silence..