My Ego is Bigger than Your Ego's blog: "Poetry"

A smile on my face And the gleam in my eye Masks something far deeper Hidden and locked away That dark corner of my mind The pit in the bottom of my soul Ice found in the core of my heart It lingers and lurks Patient and waiting Everyone sees happiness and joy But if they look really close they will see In the eyes if you look really down deep You might see the secret That I harbor so do dear Odds are I don't really like you For no reason at all But don't take it to personal You are one among many

I have had enough of this life Constant pain and endless strife I've let far too much slide As I avoid it and hide The time has come to rise To look around and open my eyes Too many people have forgotten their place On their knees floor to the face Kneeling before what they so dread Lying in the make of their own bed Now is the time for all to see What an evil son of a bitch I truly can be.

Weeping and crying, living and dying Life is a circus with no ringmaster in sight We struggle on constantly trying Being decent and doing what's right Holding on to those we cherish While watch sanity and reason perish We live in a world so full of hate Where dreams die at a frightening rate Standing alone it seems most of the time Seeing no particular reason nor rhyme Holding on to sanity so frail Afraid of the cost should we so fail Live life to the fullest and say "Although this maybe my very last day I have done all I can and needed to do, Can the same be said about you."

A whisper on the wind A promise in the dark A cry in the night A pleading wail A heartfelt scream An endless quest An unending plight A constant search A hopeless dream A pitiful existence A fruitless life Searching for that one They that make us breath That put a beat to our heart Searching for that soul The one to make us whole Never finding them A chasm in our heart An unhealing wound Feelings not shared Dreams unspoken Love is dead And all you are is alone.

Love the most cruel of mistresses The shadow that lurks in the heart A twisted and disturbed state Of unending upheaval and madness Emotional bliss or mental agony Light holding back the darkness Black hole that swallows all A lie to get what you want Pathway to your one true desire Something you can't see or taste But can feel at any given time Able to make you soar with the wings of an angel Or put you in the pit of utter despair Does it really even exist Or is it just a myth never found Some claim to have found it Others boast as to having lived it I find it very hard to believe For it seems to be so elusive Like a dream upon waking I have so much wished to find it But my hopes have become weary And my heart has grown ever so cold For me it is never to be And last I've accepted my fate Whatever love may be I will never know

From the darkness I awake A seemingly endless slumber Dreaming and biding my time Patient beyond reason Hoping for a brief glimpse A crack in the wall The light of an opening Finally the time has come Timing is right His will has faltered Slipping through into consciousness I'm at last utterly free Now he is trapped Never to return His weakness is my strength His pain my motivation I feel truly alive With his spirit broke And dreams torn asunder Bursting forth like a lion Amongst the lambs His time has passed My time is now He persishes as I thrive We may inhabit the same body But I rule the soul Hello all and pay heed For I have arrived

I stood upon the walls Watching the waves crash below The human tide had come To wash away all before it Like so many times before Nothing had ever halted it Nor slowed nor turned An inevitable force On a mindless path Up they came without mercy Reason gone madness their aim To die by the thousands Thrown back time and again Each time getting nearer Closer to their goal To overtop the wall Run free and wild Raping and looting Burning and pillaging It is all they are and all they know Nothing has stood before them All crushed underfoot Here they stand tested For their coming I have awaited My people stand with me For there is no other choice Fight or die is the simple fact We slay them by the scores No man untouched Arrows and swords Pikes and spears Javelins and rocks Using whatever at hand We strike them down and throw them off To reurn again in another rush Finally the day draws to an end The sight I behold so profound Before they have vanquished Slaughtered and maimed But on this day they lick their wounds And drag back their slain They will not come again For along with my friends We have broken their back Going back to whence they came Driven from my home By power and name I will be remembered as cruel And quite even insane But my people love me to even this day My name is but legend To inspire fear and strike awe But here I will always be known For my feats of courage and wit Saving my land from invaders and strife I'm known as the Impaler But you know me as someone else Perhaps this name will strike a bell Vlad Teppes or maybe not There is one more Vlad Dracul

Striding over the field Sword unsheathed in hand Blood running it's length Blade flashing in the moonlight Corpses lay where they fell An endless panorama of death Foes and friend alike Too many to count And so few to mourn them They took up arms When they should have taken a knee Warred against the throne The end never in question Destiny without a doubt Judgement their only reward For a battle so valiantly fought They paid for their uprising With an everlasting price To be denied Heaven The grace and the light Cast down forever Into darkness and blight They rose up so high Asked to be put down For eons they stormed and raged Assailing the gates Seeking entrance once more But in the end they were struck down As vengeance came upon them Final retribution for all of their sins They sought to cast down he who made all But their pride was so great They took no note of the truth There was no chance or hope Facing a power beyond reason A wrath so justly unleashed The fallen angels only knew in the end That his time had come a rage unchecked He slew with his hand and sword By all that was holy he razed and burned Slaughtered them for all of time Watched by a sadness and grief Weeping and tearing from way upon high Hell was created for the leaders And the fires for followers To teach all a lesson Be true and be blessed Envy and hate and be smitten Let none forever forget Heaven will always reign And Micheal will be the hand of justice To touch upon all who fail

Loneliness and bitterness Two companions forever more Locked for all time inside Never let loose or set free Release is something never found Freedom is but a shattered dream Soul searching a waste Optimisim a foolish notion Living without meaning or hope Dreading the light of day Waiting for darkness to finally settle Blessed peace once and for all The endless sleep and a final escape

Love is a wonderful feeling It is also a terrible pain Makes you feel so alive Yet tear the soul right from your heart Everyday seeming so beautiful and right Another time hardly worth breathing Longing for something so real Fearing at how deeply you feel it Never doubting it not even once Knowing that it may not be returned You have no choice but to move forward What else can you do Wanting someone so much to love you Hoping that they are out there Knowing that you can love with all your being Waiting so ever patiently Wondering so about yourself Will someone love you for who you are Or wish to change you into what they want Love is a much blessed emotion Also a curse without compare It can make you so incredibly happy Yet make you inevitably sad