rambling mind
i usually can ramble at the mouth. tonight, i am going to ramble at the blog. has your mind ever just filled up with to many thoughts, you dont know what to do with them? i sometimes let things build up to much. i am so use to handling things on my own. i dont confide in to many people. it is all just normal shit too. i am worrying about my son going to college. i know he will be ok, but i am his mom and he will going to NY. i am worried about making sure it gets paid. i will do whatever i have to. i am worried about my financial situation. i am not poor, but by all means, i am not reach. i live from pay check to paycheck and i hate it. i am thinking about my job. not sure i want to stay,not sure if i should go. i work for my stepdad and dont want to disappoint him. my mother and him have done so much for me. i am scared he would get pissed at me. but, its getting hard for me to work for him. there are reasons of course, but i wont get into those now. yea believe that?? lol there is a good friend of mine that i am worried about. she has herself in a situation that she is not so sure how to get out of. dont worry, she is not in any danger. again there is more behind that, but not going to put here.last but not least, there is this fellow that i hmmmmmm care about. things have changed and i was so hoping that they wouldnt. there is alot more to that story also, but again, not going here. i am just hoping we dont lose total contact or our friendship and be able to see what happens one day. well, i think i have rambled enough and i am sure most are not even going to bother to read this. i dont care, i got it off my chest .
