Ok, so im a lil taken aback by how fuckin ballsy some of you guys think you are and how stupid you think some of us girls must be.
Guy 1 - Most recent, been dating(?) this guy off and on since feb. Hang out, get drunk, be stupid, whatever, mess around, but never really fucked...so I'm thinkin ok, maybe this is one that isnt just tryin to fuck me, awesome. Now this has been goin on since FEBRUARY, with a couple of small breaks, a month or so when i moved to dallas, and a couple of weeks when I was somewhat seriousa bout someone else (guy 2, whom I'll get to in a minute) And i told guy one about guy 2...when things didnt work out, per se, We started kickin it again. Hes always tellin me, how he likes me and how different I am, and how he can just be himself and its cool...SO last weekend, I go over there after work, at like 11pm and hang out with him, he mentions that we are pretty much together at this point..and i didnt argue...asked me to come over on my days off...tues and wed... i tried once to get ahold of him on tuesday evening after he got off work, no answer. I didnt bother with wednesday. Dont hear from him till this morning really...he chats with me for a few minutes and tells me that hes back with his ex girlfriend (whom ive had to listen to more than a few rants about). Im like ok, thats cool. But really tell me how you can so easily commit to someone who has already fucked ya over once, but you cant commit to someone who has given you no indication that they are out to try to fuck you over in anwyay, and has been honest with you about everything. Whatever, hope it works out THIS time, thanks for wasting MY time.
Guy 2- Dont know this guy like for real for real in person, but spent quit a bit of time on the phone and internet with him...tells me alot of stuff about how he feels about me, thats pretty serious, then suddenly decides that he feels the same about no only just someone, but soemone that I can consider, althought i havent known her long, a pretty damn good friend. Doesnt tell me, I have to ask him, then suddenly he shuts down totally and i def dont hear from him every night like i was there for a bit. Yea it kinda pissed me off i guess for a bit, but its whatever, I aint mad at ya. Like for real.
Guy 3- Now this one gets the GOLDEN FUCKIN STAR OF ASSHOLE...if there is such a thing, i would send it to him. This one would take way too long, so im just gonna say that I spent 8 fuckin months listenin to his long drawn out complicated dramatic fuckin fairy tale nightmare, lying to me from DAY FUCKIN ONE, people. And i was emotinally checked out of this one as far back as Thanksgiving, mind you. I put up with it, honestly because at the point it had gotten to, it was comical and gave me something to do...was a cool guy to hang out wtih as a friend really and thats more what it felt like after all the lies. I knew I could not trust this person. Anyway, a month ago, lil less maybe, he comes over here and stays for 3 days, talkin to me about how he wants us to fix up his house, how hes going to put me on the deed to the house so i have some protection, how we are goin to get married, goes as far as to plan WHERE we are going to get married. I take him home, and he gets online and tells me hes goin to his aunts and he will be home later. I decided to drive by whats going to be my house to see my kittens and there is some strange car in the drive way. I leave. I dont say shit, i dont start shit..i just drive home I call him, no answer. i did NOT blow up on this mans answering machine, in fact, I SAID NOTHING. I laughed once, thats it. Kinda that "I know you are full of shit, im glad i didnt believe a word outta your mouth over the last 3 days" laugh. Well come to find out, hes moved some MARRIED woman who he even went as far as to bitch about her callin him all the time to ME, sayin how he didnt get involved with married women and shit, Ok, this woman is moving into his house. Now unless she got a Divorce in the last month and a half that shes been knowin him, WHATEVER. So, I dont even say shit. Seriosuly, when the fuck did i get so passive!! I leave it alone, friends, cool. Im serious when i say ive been emotionally checked out of this one for a WHILE. Theres just been too much bullshit from him from the start for me to ever be capable of trusting him. Who the fuck kind of person thinks they can do that to someone and think they are gettin away with it, IN the end, he finally realized ive been onto this ENTIRE LIE for a while, but he thought he had me fooled. My bad on that one for not sayin anything right?
Oh and this time last year, I was dealin with my ex of 11 years and I tryin to get back together, he sends me off to my parents house to get myself together, cuz i was all fucked up, then cheats on me with the 20 yr old, 10x as FUCKED UP as i was and have ever been version of me and gets all sucked back into drugs and all sorts of other bullshit.
is it me? SEriously?! WTF IS GOIN ON! I know alot of guy 3 was me jsut letting it go on. Guy 2, I dont know wtf, its cool man, feelings change....guy 1, um, im lost. and the ex, well, ex's r ex's for a reason, thank god he fucked me on that one and i figured it out.
So yea....opinions? Comments?
