I should not feel like this again
I have been blessed with so much already in my life
I have wonderful friends who love me dearly, and beyond mere words they have been here for me...
i should just settle on the fact that i am not ment to have another woman in my life to share my time with
mind is sreaming this fact at me every day
once again i find my spirit has a mind of its own, i found a friend in a young woman who seems to just know me
jaded i have been and jaded i still am
i cant seem to reach out like i used...
i ache inside to share again but cant seem to break thru that wall that seperates me from my new friend...
my close friends around me seem to find the one that can be real in their lives
to profess their love too and have it returned to them in folds
why do i sit and shed these tears aching for the same for me
its so much easier to stay walled up, but i fight my own heart
just wish it would lay still and be quiet
My heart is breaking with out you even in the mere hours with out talking to you or knowing you are ok I havent ate since we last met and i cannot I have not slept and i cannot I love you and dont know what I did please save me once again like you always have done in the past now more than ever I need you
